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Craniotomy of Conscience/ Serious Business

Craniotomy of Conscience

This is me, swallowing my pride... Saying I'm sorry... And just writing down everthing I think, so that maybe - just maybe - you'll understand how I feel.

All of this is original material about what goes on inside my head. Some of it may be metaphorical, some of it more like a diary, and some of it just plain imagination. Some of it will be written with characters, to explain some of the scenarios that go on in my brain. Some of this will be written in first person, some in second person - when it might get a little too hard to handle - and maybe a couple in third person. Just because I format it differently and write it differntly from how you might structure a journal or an autobiography doesn't make this any less personal. I've gotten a lot of shit for it in the past, but the way I see it is that since it is all based off my experience and things that I have personally gone through in life, it can be whatever I want it to be. So, please just keep an open mind.

To be perfectly honest, this is really really hard to do. I don't know if anyone I know personally will ever read what I've written here, but if you do, I'm so so so sorry. I'll admit it right now, I am a compulsive liar. Amongst a lot of other things, lying has become one of the biggest defining features in my life. If you find out that something I've told you wasn't true, or the complete truth... I'm sorry. I try so hard, and if it wasn't something from the distant past, I probably just slipped up because I felt like I wasn't good enough, or you were judging me. I am so so sorry that I betrayed you or made you feel bad.

Unless of course, you were one of the kids that used to bully me. In that case, I regret nothing. I'm glad I managed to fool you, and have fun reading about all the shit you have and still are putting me through.

On a slightly more cheerful note, if you were just here for some light reading... hi! I swear I'm not quite as terrible as I might come across. I'm working on it. Please enjoy reading about my messed up head, and feel free to vote and comment because even if you didn't like it, I'd like to know that someone actually reads my work...

I am so terribly sorry for my horrible grammar and admittedly shocking spelling. Please do tell me if something is wrong so I can go ahead and fix it.

Serious Business

***WARNING***

This contains themes and ideas of self harm and suicide. Please please please, do NOT read this if you are easily triggered.

This is a collection of short stories, internal monologues and journal entries, to show you what exactly goes on in my brain.

All works found here are completely 100% original and are protected under the 1995 Copyright Act. Please don't steal my work and call it your own. I honestly don't think that there is anything here that anyone would like to take credit of, but if you are thinking of doing it, just don't. It hurts, and nobody likes that.

If any of you nice people reading this happen to see my work appear somewhere else, please do tell me so that I can take care of it. It would be much appreciated and you will have my eternal gratitude for being a nice, honest person.

Creative Commons do apply to this. Attribution, non-commercial, no derivatives. If you don't know what that means you can find out here - http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-nc-nd/2.5/au/

Basically, if you would like to use these internal monologues for small personal things like a class presentation or to post on someone's facebook wall... Please feel free to do so, so long as it is all credited back to this source and you do not change or build on any of the material. You don't have to, but it would also be nice if you inboxed me to let me know. :)

Comment if you like it. I really hope you can understand, relate to or and enjoy this.

Peaceskies!

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