Thoughts From a Different World

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my breath stops

my body in the hospital bed

the tubes

coming from my neck, breathing

fluids blood medications

my tear stained eyes linger on me

i'm standing

staring at me on the table

someone comes and takes blood

ah

my arm is bleeding

i place pressure

but that wasn't me..?

i sit

i stare at my face

pale, lifeless and tired

i look down at the tiles of the floor

and see a trickle of blood

i bend down

i pull up tile

and i see him

sitting, curled in a ball

blood is on the walls

on his hands and stomach

aching for me

worse than me

fighting for me

he is the one keeping me alive

from underneath

he's unseen

i feel myself jumping towards him

wishing i could stop the pain

i've brought him

so much

pain and blood

for i should've been him

for i have done so much wrong

but the pure takes the pain away

so i can live painless

his eyes are bloodshot

looking slowly at me

i let my knees give out and cry

beside him i lay

his bloody arms take me

and embraces me

for i cause all his pain

i push back and embrace him

for he needs it more

i see his eyes

so close to mine

they get lighter

i scan his eyes and features

looking for answers

he gives me none

but i give them answers

for i cause all the pain.