Close // Riarkle

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Farkle

"Farkle, I promise you that I will never leave you again. You have me." She shuffled over to my side again and gently rested her head back on my shoulder, "Even if all we can be is friends, I want that with you over nothing any day." It felt good to hear her say those words, it had been so easy to just let her back in that the fear of her leaving again was growing. We practically acted like a couple again today; as much as I tried to restrict myself, just hearing her voice or looking into her eyes had me melting.

I tilted her head up to look at her. She looked up at me with her big brown eyes, and man did I love those eyes. Her hair was thrown into a messy ponytail, pieces of dark hair that had fallen out framing her face. Her lips were pink and plump, she lightly pulled her bottom lip in between her teeth sending a shiver down my back.

She looked vulnerable and honest. And in this moment I knew she was telling the truth, that she wouldn't hurt me again. I trust her, probably more than I should.

"Friends then?" All of my focus was on her, and how her skin seemed to glow in the moonlight.

"Friends." Her eyes flickered down to my lips then back up to my eyes. Her lips quirked up slightly, but only slightly.

She looked so beautiful. "Good." Was the only thing that I could manage past my lips. As much as I tried to tell myself that things were different now, that we were different now, I just didn't believe it. I mean obviously were older and life isn't black and white anymore. There's so much more than just I love you let's be together. And as much as I loved her, as much as I still love her, things are much more complicated now. 

Yet throughout all of these doubts I have, I still feel the same for her. Even after all this time.

The fire in my stomach was growing and I just knew I had to.

I slipped my hand behind her neck and let my lips find hers. We just fit together like two pieces of a puzzle. She was shocked for a moment, but then immediately melted into me. The fire in my stomach spread, sending warmth and shivers throughout me. I was buzzing, kissing her gave me a feeling that I could never replace. 

And I didn't want it to end, I wanted to kiss her for as long as I could and stay in this moment forever. 

But as the ride ended I had to release her. She pulled away and smiled. Her eyes were shining and her cheeks were tinted pink. I couldn't help the goofy smile that came over me.

We hopped off of the ride and our hands intwined immediately.

We didn't say anything, but we didn't need to. It just felt comfortable, effortless, right I suppose.

We walked away from the carnival, one that held old and new memories. It was a place that when I thought of only brought me happy memories.

Before I knew it we were outside her door and she turned to face me.

"I guess we'll have to talk about this." Her lips pursed.

"Yeah... What do you think?" I scratched the back of my neck.

She grabbed my hand from behind my neck, "Please don't be nervous, we'll be okay no matter what happens." 

A small smile spread across my lips as I felt my nerves dissipate with her hand in mine, she always knew how to make me feel better, "You still remember my nervous habits huh?"

"Of course, I may of acted like it but I never forgot anything about you." She smiled and released my hand, "We don't have to talk about this now, I want to remember this night just how it is." She put a hand on my shoulder and went onto her tippy toes, placing a gentle lingering kiss on my lips. My hands immediately wrapped around her waist, not wanting to let her go.