Secretly, I Love You Boyxboy (Oliver Sykes/Andy Biersack)

chapter 4: uhm ash?

Hai guys sorry for taking so long with my updating I’ve just been busy with family stuff. Thanks to kaitlin2318 for the amazing cover. OMG It’s also freezing here. Well here you go. NEW CHAPTER!!!!!!

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Oli’s  POV

I closed my notebook and took another drink of jack. I lie back on my pillow and think about why I had to like him. It would have been easier to like anyone else but him. I sigh and roll over in my bunk closing my eyes and fall asleep. (Italic is a dream)

           I felt someone lie next to me and I open my eyes and see Andy beside me. He rolls onto his side and smiles and me and stokes my face with his hand.

      “ Morning baby. Sleep well?” I couldn’t speak. I just kept looking into his beautiful blue eyes. I smile and nod. He grabbed my hand and pulled me close to him. He leaned closer and I felt his breath on my lips.  I leaned closer.

          I sit up in my bunk gasping and look around. Everything was dark and I sigh. I grab my phone and check the time 1 am.  I put my phone back down and hear a light laughter coming from the front of the bus. I sigh and clear my mind of all the negative things floating around in there. “It was just a dream Oli. He made it clear this morning that that would never would happen.”I jump out of the bunk and walk out into the front to find matt and lee sitting on the couch watching Jordan fail at arm wrestling Nicholls.  I walk past them and out into the cool night air. I saw a bench a little ways away from the busses and went and sat on it taking out my cigarettes, lighting one and took a drag.

               “Those things are gonna kill you.” I look up to see Ashley sit beside me I shrug and look back at the tree in front of me. He looked over at me and sighed

“Just give him a little time and I’m sure he’ll warm up to you."  I just nod my head

             “Yeah I doubt that, mate.”  I put my cigarette out and stood up and stretched. I walked back to my bus and sat on the couch. They guys had put in a movie. I don’t know what one I just sat there and blanked out.

Ashley’s pov (YAY!!!!)

       I don’t think I’ll ever get through to Andy on how important it is to tell someone how you feel. I know Ashley the player slash perv giving out love advice? Well to tell the truth I do love someone I’m just afraid to tell him and he isn’t gay. I waited too long and lost my shot with him. I got up from my place beside Jake and walked outside. I saw Oliver leave his bus and decided to talk to him. Maybe I could help him feel less down. I headed over to where he was sitting. I saw him take out a cancer stick and shook my head. What is it with people and smoking? I’ll never understand.

           “Those things are gonna kill you.” He looked up at me and I could tell from the look in his eyes that he was hurt. I sighed to myself. I’m going to get Andy to admit how he feels one way or another. He just shrugged his shoulders. I sat beside him on the bench and looked at the tree.

          “Just give him a little time and I’m sure he’ll warm up to you.” He nodded and looked at me then back at the tree.

          “Yeah I doubt that, mate.” He stood up and put his cigarette out and walked back to his bus. I stayed there and sighed laying my head on the back of the bench. Maybe I should take my own advice and tell Jake how I feel. The least he could do is be grossed out, hate me, and possibly never talk to me again. I sighed again and hit my head on the back of the bench.

          “Come on ash be a man! Grow some balls!!” I stood up after giving myself a pep talk and walk back to the bus. I jerked the door open and looked around till my eyes landed on him. I gulped and walked forward.  

          “Yo ash you ok man? You look a little pale.” I looked and saw all the guys looking at me. I nod slightly and take a deep breath.

          “I uh….i have something I have to tell you” I walk over and stood in front of Jake. “I’ve just been to much of a pussy to say it and I can’t just tell someone to tell the person they really care about to tell them and not to worry about how they take it because at least then they know.” He looks up at me with wide eyes

“Uhm ash? What are you talking about?” I grab his hand and pull him to a standing position and look him in the eyes. 

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