The Love Game // z.m

Chapter Twenty - Fall Outs and Rumours

*Play song whenever, really fits this story at this moment*

After the whole fiasco with Liam, I decide to better myself. I walk to the showers and and begin to cleanse myself. I scrub like I've never scrubbed before. It starts to burn after a while. I feel the sting of the shower water. It stings like a bitch. It doesn't hurt as much as what he done. I can't even bring myself to speak or even think of his name. 

Everything has gone downhill since it happened. My dad has stopped calling me. Even Milli hasn't. She probably doesn't miss me. Her friends mom took her in while dad come to England and sorted me out. She probably blames me for that too. 

I've fucked everything up. 

The shower stops and I wrap the towel around my body. I grab my toiletries and leave the shower block. I towel dry my hair slightly so it's not dripping while i'm walking. I walk towards my dorm. As soon as I get close to my dorm, I see him. Do not cry. Do not look at him. Do not face him. He is nothing. He needs to leave. I quickly glance at him and see him wink. I run into my dorm and immediately tears run down my face. 

I can't let him know I am weak. He mustn't know how bad he's hurt me. He can't see me. 

I wipe my face of tears and take long breaths. C'mon Kelly, breathe. Focus on your breathing. In and out. 

You can do this. Just breathe.

In for 10. Out for 8. Repeat.

In for 10. Out for 8. Repeat.

In for 10. Out for 8. Repeat. 

I finally feel myself calming down. That's better. I can't feel the pain in my chest anymore. The physical pain is absent. However the emotional pain, yeah, that's still their. 

I quickly get dressed, not risking anyone coming in and catching me getting dressed. I wrap myself in a burrito like shape with my blanket and lie down. I open my laptop and quickly look online for any good shows to watch. I manage to find one that looks really good. Teen Wolf it's called. 

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Roughly 5 episodes later Sarah walks in. She sits on her bed and rubs her makeup off and gathers some things. I'm guessing she's either going to Louis' dorm or to shower.

"Sarah?" My weak voice catches her attention. 

"Yeah?" She says calmly.

"Could you come here?" 

She walks over to my bed and sits on the edge. I don't say anything, I just wrap my arms around her. I can't seclude myself from everyone forever. I've grew up with Sarah. I can't be horrible forever. 

"What's this for?" She says pulling away.

"I just want to say thanks. You're there for me and i'm not even acknowledging it. I love you Sarah." 

"Aw Kell. I love you too! But we need to talk." 

"I know." I say holding my head in shame.

"When?" 

"I don't know Sare." 

"Kell, you need to sort yourself out. I've booked you an appointment with the Guidance Counsellor. You need to sort yourself out and get back to your happy self." 

"How could you do that! I don't need help. I'm fine! See?" I say smiling. 

"No you're not. The sooner you realise that, you will be back to your normal self. Kell, I feel like i don't even know you anymore. You've changed and I don't like it. You need to get your act together and start going to classes. They're threatening to expel you if you don't turn up for anymore lessons. The only reason they're not is because you're dad is paying them so much money. What happened to soccer? You used to love going and now you're doing nothing. This is not right. Please, i'm begging you. Please go see Mrs Rowens. It will do you so much good!"

I shake my head. "I'm not going. There is nothing wrong with me! Just leave! Go to Louis or something. Get out."

"Kelly! Not everything is about you! Since you've been stuck in your own drama for the past couple of weeks, Louis and I split up. You don't see how much i've been hurting because you're too wrapped up in yourself. I think you should be the one getting out and seeing your 'boyfriend'. Since, you know, you've been ignoring him too! He's trying to help you and he always will. You're just too self centred to realise. Get your head out of you ass and wake up. You'll be fine by next week. It's all an act, just like in Florida. You were always in it for the attention wasn't you." At this time I'm in tears. How could Sarah say such things about me. I've always been there for her. I don't think she realises how much she's hurting me. I can't even prevent the tears from escaping my eyes. God, I'm so pathetic. "Really Kelly? Putting on the waterworks now. Get over yourself. Me and everyone else can see through your act. I'm sick and tired of being on the sideline while 'Miss Perfect' gets the throne and everyone's attention. When's anyone going to pay attention to me? You're pathetic Kell. Get over yourself and get out because i'm not listening to you anymore." 

I can't even think of talking at this moment. The lump in my throat has gotten to big. I grab my laptop and a few bits and bobs and leave the room. I slump down the wall and break down. What's wrong with me? I used to be such a happy person. 

A few girl walk past and whisper to their friends. I keep hearing whispers, rumours about me. 

'I heard that Zayn dumped Kelly.'

'Apparently her dad is paying Mrs Addams. Stuck up bitch.'

'Apparently she was spying on the girls in the shower rooms. Lesbian'

(A/N sorry if thats offensive. I've almost took it out several times. I'm not homophobic in anyway. Far from it really. Just want to apologise because I know people can be offended)

I finally get up, after what seems like hours, and make my way to Liam's dorm. I know he can help.

I trudge my way through flocks of naked, sweaty, disgusting boys and knock on Liam's door. He opens drying his with a towel, and nothing on his body. I raise my hand up to cover up my eyes.

"Whoa, Kelly, didn't realise you'd be here." He looks at my bag of a few things and my laptop. "What's wrong?" 

"Sarah kicked me out." I say swallowing the lump in my throat. It doesn't work though because i burst into tears once I realise that my best friend hates me now. What could i have possibly done to make her hate me that much. 

"Shit, come in. Put your stuff on my bed. Sit down. Do you want anything?" He says taking the bag off me. 

"Zayn." 

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Hi guys back again! I have had loads of coursework to do over the past month so I havent been able to upload as much. But i'm hoping (silently praying to Castiel) that I finish this book before March! Not going to happen. But lets hope!

So since this is the last year of compulsory education (for me) it's going to be pretty hectic so i'll try and do as much as possible, while trying to get all my work in on time. 

Thank you so much for reading! Wish it got as much recognition as 'Stripper' did. However, i'm still chuffed there is even people reading this at all! 

Thank you all for reading! I love you guys so much!

All the love, 

-Abby x