My Reasons (Mystic Messenger x Male! Reader Oneshots)

Choices and Changes [pt1] {Jumin Han X Male Reader}

"Let's break up, [M/N]..."

Jumin stood behind his desk looking at his boyfriend with a blank face. [M/N] looked at him in shock. What caused this? Did he do something? What happened? He questioned himself and still doubted what he had heard.

"Haha," the said male faked a laugh and shook his head. "Jumin, baby don't play like that!" he say wearily. "Its Valentine's day tomorrow, thats not nice." [M/N] pouts and moves to grab his arm, only for Jumin to yank out of his grasp harshly. Jumin glares down at [M/N] and sighs. [M/N] retracts his hand slowly and covers his face, tears already begining to fall.

"W-why?" He asks with a shaken voice. Jumin stayed quiet and turned around to look out his window.

"Because [M/N]," He states bluntly. "I'm tired of you now. You have no use to me anymore. You're nothing but a waste of time and money." [M/N]'s tears begin falling down even more now. (A/n: Kinda like viktors tears when yuri told him he was going to retire)

"Jumin," [M/N]'s voice falters a bit but he continues. "Please, tell me why. I know you, that's not true so please. Just tell me." 

"I'm telling you the truth, [M/N]." He sighs, sounding irritated now. "You serve no purpose in my life anymore, so please leave before I send people to help you out."

"That's not true," [M/N]'s volume rises a but more as he tells him off.. " Two years worth knowing each other you think I still can't tell when you're lying versus when you're not! Dammit Jumin, that's not even remotely close to the truth and you know that!" He slams his fist onto the desk and cries.

"It is." Jumin says in a deep, hostile tone he would usually use against Luciel for touching Elizabeth 3rd. "Now get out of my office." Jumin says, he slightly turning his head towards [M/N] only to nod towards the doors. The room is quiet for a while and Jumin begins to assume [M/N] is leaving.

"Wait please," [M/N] pleads. He knew about Jumin. He knew when he was upset or not. Whether or not he was tired or just plain irritated. He knew especially, when Jumin was lying. However, this time he really couldn't tell but one thing felt off about his actions and [M/N] wasn't going to leave it like this. "Look at me, Jumin." he says lowly. "Let me see your face one more time before you send me out."

Jumin doesn't answer right away, instead waits a bit as is thinking about the situation carefully. "I have no reason to do so. Please get out." Jumin says slowly, spitting out each word like a teacher arguing with a student and trying not to punch him in the face.

[M/N] walks towards Jumin and hugs him from behind. "Jumin," he said shaking, "please don't do this, I know this isn't true already, just please let's stop this and talk."

Jumin doesn't do anything for a moment but then reaches out to his phone, pushing [M/N] off him.

"Please send people up to my office to escort Mr. [L/N] out of the building please." [M/N] looks at him and laughs sadly.

[M/N] turns quiet and just stares at Jumin's form. He smiles sadly and looks at the back of Jumin with tears in his eyes. "If this makes you happy, fine." Three people in suits come up and grab his arms leading him away from Jumin. "I love you, Jumin. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough to make you feel happy." He says before walking out of his office. Jaehee sees him walk past with tears streaming out still and tries to go up to him but the people around him stop her. Once [M/N] makes it to the first floor, he breaks down into sobs. He doesn't care that people watch him as he's on his knees crying his heart out.

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"I love you Jumin. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough to make you feel happy."

The words caused his heart to ache more as he listened to the sobs coming from his lover. Once he knew they were far away enough, broke down into sobs himself. He clenched his aching heart and cried out for [M/N]. Hating himself, his words, and his life at that moment, he lashes out and slams his fist onto his desk. He hit the lamp beside him, causing it to break and leave deep cuts on his hand. He smashed his hand on his glass cup, causing more blood to spill along with the drink it held.

People came rushing in, along with Jaehee, at the sound of the crash. "Go get something to stop the bleeding. Now!" She told the others. Jumin just stood there breathing heavily. The tears still falling out of his eyes. He let his arms hang loosely when people came back to patch up the wound, looking up at the ceiling. Jaehee walked next to him and placed a hand on his shoulder. He turned to look at her not changing his expression. His eyes dark, as if his soul just left his body. His expression blank as if he had just died. He looks back up towards the ceiling just letting everything around him move.

He thought that it would be better to die right now. His soul left him the moment [M/N] began crying. He closed his eyes, remembering the words his father told him just before, already regretting this decision. How could he say that? How did he mange to? [M/N] could easily see through his lies, they could've solved this together. Why did he say this? How could he hurt the one who have him all he had wished for?

Thinking back to last night he remembers...

Fuck it all...

He regrets it. No matter what, He should have never broken up with [M/N]. He wants to explain and get him back, but will he be able to?
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AYE ITS VALENTINE'S TOMORROW SO HERE I AM LIKE THE LONER I IS WRITING SAD SHIT HAHAHA FUCK LIFE.