August 28th. Atlanta, Georgia
Melanie's POV
I sat in a white room. It felt empty. I felt empty. I felt like I had just threw up all of my thoughts and emotions, and just watched it sit there. Waiting for something to pop out and tell me what to do or what to say or what to feel. But I felt emotionless.
I jumped when I felt someone grab my hand. "You can see Josh now" said a man in a white coat who's hair was slowly fading to a gray. He was the doctor.
I fall into these thoughts sometimes where I don't know what exactly is going on and I'm not sure who I can trust. Everything around me is just a blurr. I felt lost.
The doctor led me to Josh's room. As I got closer and closer I filled up with anxiety.
I wanted to apologize. But I did not want to go into that room. I knew Tyler and all of Josh's friends would be in there. They all knew this was my fault.
I entered the room. Only two people sat in the chairs across from Josh. Tyler and a metallic blonde who glared at me as I made my way over to where Josh lied. I stood above Josh pushing his hair back a bit to reveal his eyes. He looked up at me. Slightly smiling as he grabbed my hand gently. Intertwining our fingers.
A tear fell down my cheek. "Crybaby" Josh said wiping away my tear. "Don't call me that" I giggled quietly, leaning down to hug Josh.
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September 2nd. Howell, New Jersey
Melanie's POV
We had to cancel the last two shows so that Josh could recover. Everyone has forgiven me except for one person. But she doesn't really matter, I've only just met her.
Debby will eventually have to forgive me.
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Josh's POV
I stood in front of the mirror, smearing red eyeshadow across my eyes. I felt ashamed. I didn't know how I could face our fans tonight. I didn't want to go out there.
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"Josh you did great" Debby hugged me from behind. "Yeah, thanks" I gently pulled away from her, I'm still a bit sensitive so anything touchy feely makes me uncomfortable. "So I fly all the way over here from LA and this is what I get." She set a cigarette in between her violet purple lips. "Jack ass."
I wasn't so welcoming when Debby had came. She was the one who got me addicted to heroin. When she heard that I'd overdosed she only pretended to care. "After all I've done for you" she puffed a cloud of smoke before narrowing her eyes at me. "All you've done for me? This would have never happened if you would have just listened to me when I said I didn't want to do any stupid drugs with you!" I shut my mouth right after that.
Debby was the type of person to bite you back in the ass if you pissed her off. She threw the cigarette at me and clenched her jaw "let me know when you're done being a little bitch." She walked out off the Dressing room, slamming the door behind her.
I let out a sigh, making my way over to the sink and splashing water onto my face. All of this was to much for me. I don't know how much longer I can handle it.
