Maybe I'm just an attention whore. I think that's what they call people like me, or at least the people who actually act on thoughts that I too have.
I just see the only friends I have, and just everyone, having fun with each other. Everyone just- they just care about each other so much. It's a hilarious and fun game that everyone plays, it's called "everyone ignore Vincent for days at a time, oh and especially during break!" I haven't, "hung out" with anyone in nearly a month. Not having human interaction really hurts my mental health. It feeds my anxiety, my depression, and especially my schizophrenia.
They all say that they would hate to have a life without me, but that's only when I start talking as if I am going to kill myself. When I try to act happy nobody even says hi to me, and when that starts making me feel bad- well they pretend to care because they don't want to be the reason. They'll feel guilt if they're the reason that I kill myself.
Well they can fucking stop that because they won't be the reason that I kill myself. If I kill myself it will be my own choice, and not just because of one thing. It will be for many different things.
I'm actually trying to get better, so please try not to neglect me. I've had enough neglection for now.
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Wonders Of Life
De TodoJust me.. I think too much and my mental health isn't good so I think to keep me busy. I think so that I won't have to participate in life..
