Dear Somebody,

Chapter 7

Dear Somebody,

                                       I think i'm beginning to give up on love. It has no meaning in my life. what do you think? Maybe love is fake, The hugs with weight, seem light because the heart is late, comprehending what the subconscious hates. But the brain loves the love, so in reality the love is real but we all misunderstand the real, but is love an idea projected by the fear? And blurriness avoids the opposing lover to see it clear and it's weird. Maybe it's lust, dressed like love with make-up a tiara an eye-dust, and a red dress with a personality sweeter than cherry filling in a pie crust... & I must..see the difference, I've been in relationships where the heart don't listen. The love is hot the first few months then it's not and it's all too dumb, like a game or something. You can tell me you love me and all of the above. but if you give someone else your heart while you're with me I don't believe that's love. Maybe you got tired of me or never cared. Or maybe since you knew the other guy longer you'll know he will always be there. If so i'm going let the love rest then. Because I was too blind to realize that you're in love with your best friend. That sounds familiar right? but don't get me wrong I wish you were my best friend first before I saw you cry. Who am I to make you unhappy or to make you suffer? He knows you longer than me, but when me and you were together I believed to believe he was like your brother! all innocent. So I was trusting you and I gotta say it... I still loved you even when shit started getting complicated. Because  look, in life if you love someone you'll do anything to save it. but if she wants to leave you , you can't take her heart and enslave it. I should of known though, but my love was projected by my heart dressed like my heart. So what I'm trying to say is it was real, but even though I couldn't hide it I tried to so I wouldn't get hurt. And I never expected this to happen. Understand me, because I understand you. you let me go because you don't wanna hurt me anymore an I respect that. But I wish you would of never lied to me. Communicated and put your eyes to me. tell me how you really felt. Because on my part L O V E is what it really spelled. I know you cared for me and loved how I treated you. but if you weren't happy I should of never be with you. You don't like to cause pain and that's not a good excuse if you don't explain. look, the longer you keep a knife in a wound the blood won't come out fast, but when you finally take it out the pain will last. Heartbreaks it part of live and I'll deal with it. but it's funny how you say you loved me more but you're happy with someone else and I was feeling it. i'm going to find someone to love me unconditional...and I'll do the same and give her the world as additional! Take care and live your life good, I wanna be your friend soon, but now it's like glue, me and you, dream come true, but nightmares happen too. But I just gotta wake up and face the truth. My heart belonged to you, my love was long and true, I sing a song to you, but was it wrong to love you? it's hard to accept it. did you lead me on or was the love really majestic? did you use me to get his love, was I in the middle? Did you want to get him jealous little by little? Did you force yourself, used me as bait? or are you with him because you wanna know how his love feels, that's like eating the cake... when you have it. Tell me the truth, was it easy to make the love go poof? Are you certain about everything? I wish I was the person you can talk to about anything! I still have the memories stored in my head, your scent still in my bed. pictures that make me smile still, so you know I don't hate you, But sometimes I feel like love is a fantasy and fate ain't true.. was it a mistake to get back when we first broke up? I think I choked up, love is stronger than pride and I hope you know that.... Listen here, I wanna move on since I can't have you... it's not because I want to... it's because I have to. I'm sorry if this was too long.. I didn't expect myself to open up this much about the constant pain i'm feeling right now but for now this will have to sum it up.

                                                                                       your friend,

                                                                                                              Mr Nobody