Trampoline Boy

Ch 18

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Jessica's POV

I laid curled up in a ball wrapped in my comforter on my bed while I continued to sob for the third time now. I've been watching One Direction videos on YouTube again and I keep having to pause them to cry. I always thought having Harry answer me would make it easier and that maybe I wouldn't be as bad in my feels all the time. It did the opposite. Now I constantly wanted to talk to him and see him but I would have to force myself not to because I don't want to bother him. This is definitely not a problem I had thought about.

I repeatedly punched my pillow and screamed into it as I tried my best not to wake up everyone in the house. It's currently 2AM. Why am I up this late crying over Harry? Well what other time of the day would I do it?? What? You think I'm supposed to do it during the day when people can see me and think I'm even more crazy?

I've only talked to Harry a few times. He doesn't seem like he is really interested in talking to me at all, so I decided to never text first just to make sure I'm not bothering him. The way I see it, if he, for some reason, feels like talking to me, then he can text me. Otherwise, I'm going to focus on making sure he does not find out that I kinda just licked a picture of his face on my phone..

Maybe he didn't want to keep talking to me at all.. Maybe he just wanted to reach out to me as a one time thing because he ran over my messages and didn't want to leave it unanswered. He probably just wishes that I would leave him alone. Ugh I'm such a terrible person. I should apologize for being so clingy.. yeah, that would be the best thing I could do. I've already embarrassed myself enough.

Just as I made up my mind I heard my phone buzz and the notification popped up. My blood ran cold and my heart skipped a beat before quickly returning back to normal. It still shocks me to see messages from him. Well I shouldn't get used to it anyway. It's not like we could ever be anything. It's stupid to even consider.

I tapped on Instagram and opened the message.

From:@HARRYSTYLES
Morning love X

To:@HARRYSTYLES
Morning Harry 🙃 what's up

From:@HARRYSTYLES
Just hanging out with Lou.. you?

Just breath. Breath. Don't you dare fangirl now!

To:@HARRYSTYLES
Awe cool, and I just got up..

From:@HARRYSTYLES
Oh I didn't wake you did I?

To:@HARRYSTYLES
No no not at all haha I was already awake

From:@HARRYSTYLES
Oh okay..

From:@HARRYSTYLES
Look Jessica, I'm sorry I haven't been able to talk much. I've been really busy lately and just haven't spent much time on my phone at all.

To:@HARRYSTYLES
No no it's fine, really. I'm sorry if I'm a bother to you.. I really hate being annoying.

From:@HARRYSTYLES
No! Of course you're not a bother! I love talking to you.

From:@HARRYSTYLES
Look I'm not exactly supposed to do this, but how about we talk on Snapchat instead? I mean, only if you want to.

To:@HARRYSTYLES
Wait really? I mean yeah of course that'd be great!

From:@HARRYSTYLES
Great so just give me your name and I'll add you

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And that's a wrap for today guys! I find it a lot easier to not have to complete days on these updates. Meaning I can just drop the conversation t any point, I don't have to end it because you guys can infer the rest. I'm proud of myself for actually updating today👌🏻I mean.. it's technically the next day by now but oh well when do I ever write chapters during normal hours😂