"Tell me pretty lies, look me in the face. Tell me that you love me, even if its fake, cause I don't fucking care- at all." My feet skimmed over the cold wood as I danced and sang along to whatever songs came on the radio. I have got to be the worlds worst dancer, but that doesn't mean I can't try.
"You been out all night. I don't know where you been. You're slurring all your words, not making any sense, but I don't fucking care- at all." I swayed my hips to the beat as I started spreading the peanut butter onto the toast in my hand. I'm currently in Bailey's parent's extra cabin out by the river.
They were nice enough to let me stay here until I got myself together. Its honestly so much more relaxing here. I feel like I can actually breath. I like being alone anyways, so this is perfect for me. I wonder if they'd sell this place to me.
I slid open the glass door before walking out onto the back deck and setting my plate down on the table. I sat down and sighed, watching the sun rise over the water. "I hate you, I love you, I hate that I want you. Don't want to but I can't put nobody else before you." Images of Harry from only nights before flashed through my head and I gritted my teeth, wishing that I could be thinking of anyone else but him.
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Once I finished my toast, I walked back inside and plopped down onto the couch. I grabbed my laptop and decided to watch some YouTube. As soon as I open the home page I was greeted with picture after picture of him. who he's been dating, where he's been spotted, recent interviews. Videos that I used to find entertaining to watch, now only struck a new bolt of pain into my heart. I wish he would just go away! I slammed my laptop closed and decided to go for a run.
I set out on the first trail I saw and just started running. The more I thought of him the faster I ran. By now I'm not even sure what it really is that I'm running from. Harry or myself? I suddenly veered off the path, weaving between trees and jumping small brush as I felt my old senses start to come back to me. How I used to always take runs like this just to get my stress out, to get away from everything. So much has changed in the past two years. I've grown and become a completely different person. Was it really for the better though?
With my thoughts so clouded, I didn't see the large ditch in front of me. I grabbed desperately at trees as I rolled harshly down the hill and onto a cold wet road below. I groaned, rolling onto my back before getting up and glaring at my now torn and damp clothes. "Well, I guess I'll just follow this road back because there's no way I'm getting back up that hill," I spoke to myself as I started slowly walking down the road.
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I made a point to walk on the left side of the road. Believe it or not I'd actually like to not get hit today. When I heard the low rumbling of an engine getting increasingly louder behind me, I furrowed my eyebrows, turning to see if there was a car coming. When there was no car in sight I shrugged, turning back around. That's strange.
I only had a split helpless second to gasp as two incredibly bright lights entered my vision. There wasn't even time to think before I felt a dull pressure to my chest. The feeling soon washed over my entire body as I laid crumpled up into a ball on the pavement. I heard muffled screeching followed by the slam of a car door and a string of curses.
I couldn't move any part of my body. I couldn't even blink. I just stared at the small green plant sprouted through the pavement in front of my face as my vision started to blur. I could feel my brain running in overdrive, trying to make sense of whether or not I was still alive, and how to react. The whole world was spinning and I couldn't feel anything, which I was a little thankful for.
I heard echoing voices as I was pulled into someone's arms and carried. It was then that I could feel the dull throb with every rapid beat of my heart. I was fighting for consciousness when my eyes fell to the road where I was previously lying. I could barely make out a small pool of blood on the rocks before my brain finally took control and my eyelids drooped closed. What a day.
