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another day on purgatory

TRIGGER WARNING FOR THIS ONE SO PLEASE READ WITH CARE.
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Jacks pov (again)

I wake up on the bathroom floor, with a pool of blood welling around both of my arms, my eyes shut slowly. I'm not panicked. Maybe I want this.

I jolt up in bed wich also wakes mark, he took a minute to adjust to the darkness then his face quickly dropped to worry. "Hey hey your okay," he said rubbing my shoulder, i hadn't realised I was crying, mark would think I was a wierdo if I told him the dream. God I'm such a freak.

We both got up seeing as non of us could sleep after that. It was only 7am so it wasn't that early. Mark got dressed first then left me to do he same. I slipped on some black skinny jeans and took my shirt off. I looked in the mirror, only to be greeted by the sight of a short sad little emo boy. im such a failure. I looked down at my arms, and the soon to be scars that littered them. I've ruined myself. I've officially gone psycho. I slipped on a baggy tshirt and a large black hoodie. The sleeves of the hoodie went over my hands so it would keep my arms hidden. I threw on a beanie and greeted mark at the door, "hey Mark guess what," he looked confused "what," "I'm 3 days clean," i smiled at him and he smiled back and hugged me "awww baby I'm so proud," with that we continued to walk to school. We are now a street away and I'm freaking the fuck out, my breathing is so irregular right now. Mark grabs my hand and smiles warmly at me, the school will know about us soon anyways. We walk into the front doors and almost immediately a piece of paper is thrown at my head. I pick it up and read the note

Go kill yourself. Emo fag.

Maybe I will, someday. Mark didn't get to see the note before I threw it away. "What did it say," he asked.
"Oh just idiot," i lied.
"Jeez you'd think they could do better," he said referring to the lie. I chuckled trying not to seem suspicious. We walked to class and they had gotten rid of the single desks a5nd got 2 seater tables. Miss picked up a piece of paper wich was obviously a seating plan. "Alright students, you might of noticed a  change in tables and right here is your seating plan...
Okay so there is...
Mark and Kim.
Elie and Bob.
Alex and Nicole.
Jack and Darren."
That's it my hearing was blocked out. I can't sit next to him. He's a perv. He'll do bad things to me. Mark was already talking to Kim about some movie. I hesitantly sat down next to Darren and looked straight ahead.
"Hey kitten, looks like home room is going to be fun," he whispered into my ear. I shivered at the thought of it.
"Oh and also you'd better meet me at lunch in the bathrooms or else," i gulped and tried to listen to the teacher ad much as I could. I didn't tell mark about Darren and said that i had a detention at lunch so he wouldn't be worried.

When lunch rolled around I stuffed my books into my bag and made my way to the bathrooms. As I walked in Darren was waiting near the end stall. " What do you want,"
"Oh you know what I want," he said holding a dildo in his hands.
"B-but i-its to b-big,"i stuttered trying to find a way out of this situation. Before i could get away he pulled me into the stall...

Please tell me if u are okay with smut cos I'll write it if u want but only if every one is comfortable with it.