Why Me?

Why Did You Do It?

~Just wanted to give a quick author's note before starting and I wanted to thank everyone who's supported me from the start. I love you guys and hope you enjoy this! Also, the vertical ellipses are the different days, there will always be more than two days.~

 I want to know why you decided to listen to me. I was drunk, I wasn't thinking straight. But now.. Now you're here. With me.. You proclaiming to be my coach from now on. 

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The moment I saw the video that the girls posted, I didn't imagine that you would actually come to Japan and become my coach. I'm happy and yet.. I'm not. I don't know why but I have a sinking feeling about this. 

Viktor. I need you to understand that I want to ask you these questions, but I can't. I want to tell you that you're wasting your time on me. The fact that you were willing to be this kind to me, something tells me that this is disastrous, but I feel like I should be more thankful. I mean, you did travel all of these miles to see me, coach me, even help me.. Thank you.

I have too many questions about this situation that life threw me into. However, I have a feeling that I shouldn't ask and that I should just live it. Living in the moment.. You need to tell me how to do that. I don't think I can teach myself. 

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You are the most inspiring person in the skating world, some might even call you king. But why would a king leave his castle? Just to help out a peasant like me? Of course.. The fortunate almost always help those in need. The king will soon need to go back to his castle so a riot doesn't break out over who will take over. I hope you don't have to deal with too much chaos when you return to your palace.

I can't sleep, I want to go sleep with you. In your bed.. Please Viktor, take your time with me... But I only have one question. Why did you do it?