"never let it die"
never let what die, exactly?
the passion?
i love arranging words
but even i have to admit
that eventually the day will come
when i can't find a new way for the words to sit
and i can't know if that day will come
before the day my curséd hands-
the ones that feel like pianist's when using a keyboard
while the owner watches words dance across a page
-become gnarled with age
perpetually pained and praying for the end
my life's greatest joy in the beginning
once my best friend
soon becomes my wayward true love
gone on the wings of a dove
and leaving me with nothing to do
but stare hard with tired eyes at a bingo card
or is it the wonder?
wonder is life's greatest blunder
because as long as knowledge knows what's best
wonder will wind up dying like the rest
surely it is no contest
when a child's tooth transfigures into a 50 cent piece
just like magic
except for the part where little timmy
one eye peeled open
sees dad sneaking away in the night
trying so hard not to make a sound
or the year sally slaved over cookies for santa
taking care to leave a carrot for rudolph
only to realize that for some strange reason
santa's signature bore striking resemblance
to mom's when the pen in her hand does a dance
is it the motivation?
motivation is sometimes hard
when people are telling me that this isn't my calling card
all the tight-lipped smiles of pity
whenever i'm asked, "what else do you want to do?"
to be perfectly honest, it feels kind of shitty
it's a knife in my heart, a stab in my back
in my darkest hour i feel my resolve crack
and there goes the backbone we all know i lack
or maybe it means me
or bigger than me, the fragility of life
the very thing that causes so many strife
but i know it is merely a pipedream
eventually my poor eyes will lose their gleam
you might say,
"hey now holly
it's not so bad
you could live on through your words
come on, they're more than just a fad
wouldn't that be rad?
now there's no need to be sad!"
i mean, sure, but it isn't me who's got longevity
it's those words i wrote just to get some levity
what's so special about me
compared to all those other dead white dudes
tell me one thing about shakespeare the man
and then tell me about your favorite play he penned
then we'll measure which conversation's longer
and that's the answer about whether me or my words are stronger
"never let it die"
now that one's a crapshoot
but trust me, i'll be damned if i don't go down trying
"ms. mcfarlane, you're dying-"
-damn straight, kid, we're all dying
but listen here, sonny
i'll be a monkey's uncle if you think
that's i'm going before you do, just another fink
nah, i'm going down screaming and fighting
i don't even care if they drag me down or up
just pour a little more champagne in my cup
now this life thing, it's mostly dumb luck
"never let it die"-
now that's impossible, but
water it, nurture it, let it grow
not having the ambition, though
that's your real foe
its temporary nature
is the artistry
that fosters the artist in me
so sit back, relax and enjoy the ride
because everything in life happens in due time
