Clean Slate

Chapter 1: Reason for Leaving

Alexandra’s Pov

“Stop looking at me like that” I groan as I open the trunk of my car, I couldn't handle it when Julie gives me that sad puppy face.

“Sorry” she mumbles helping get my bangs out, guilt suddenly washes over me, I feel awful leaving her like this, after everything she helped me, she’s been there for me since middle school, she stood by me when nobody wanted to even look at me in the eyes. And now, I’m leaving her to face the last year of high school alone, I’m such a bad best friend

I sigh as I close the trunk door, I turn to my green eyed friend and I smile sadly.

“Let’s just go inside” I say softly trying not to let the tears fall, she smiles, looking almost normal again and leads the way towards her front door.

“Mom and dad will be back later” says Julie breaking the tense silence, I nod looking around, everything inside the huge house looks spotless, as usual.

“I’m going to put my stuff in your room” I inform her taking the other suitcase from her, she smiles slightly and takes it back from me.

“I’ll help” she says already walking up the stairs, I chuckle and start after my best friend. “I’m going to get us junk food, Make yourself at home, like always!” she exclaims before exiting the room, closing the door with more force than needed, I shake my head and sigh. I’m really going to miss Julie, she’s one of those people that no matter how long you have knew them, they changed you. But I just need to start fresh, or as some might say clean my slate, after everything that has happened in my life lately. No, stop Alexandra you are not thinking about him tonight, not now, is your last time with Julie before you leave this hell hole.

I sit up gaining some internal confidence from my mini pep talk and I walk over to Julie’s walk in closet, I swear this girl has more clothes than Forever 2! You could find anything in here, if there’s something Julie always had was a not so controlled obsession with shopping.

I chuckle to myself as I grab a plain blue tank top and a pajamma shorts. I walk out of the closet and dump the clothes in the bed, and reach to my side to unzip my black dress, I let the dress fall to the floor as I grab the tank top and pull it over my head and then I grab the shorts putting them on before turning around

I sigh annoyed, I forgot there was a mirror there. But instead of looking away I walk closer, studying myself for a second, it’s been a while since I took the time to study myself, who knew that I could change so much in just a year? I give myself a humorlessly chuckle and tear my eyes away from my reflection making my way towards the bathroom. I sigh as I’m meet my another mirror, this one focusing on my upper body, my face a lot closer now.

“Pathetic” I mumble to myself as I glare at the black haired girl in front of me, and it’s true I did look pathetic, I look weak. I sigh as I splash water into my face, I close the water and look up again, the same pale, black haired girl staring back at me, why was I so much like them? Them, I haven’t thought about them in such a long time, but as I look into my eyes I see something I’m disgusted with, I see them. I see my mom’s selfishness, I see my dad’s hate. I see the worse of them in me, I feel tears forming at the back of my eyes, my blue-grey eyes fixed on my own face, pain clearly in my face as I think back in time, the accident, the beatings, the divorce.

“Alexandra?” I look away from my reflection when I hear a familiar voice calling me, I sigh closing my eyes for a second and take a deep breath. “I’ll be out in a sec” I inform Julie, I sigh as I dry myself with the towel and after looking back at the mirror for a few seconds I open the bathroom door. I couldn’t help the laugh that escapes my lips as I take in the scene in front of me, Julie trying to close the door with her arms full of junk food, she stumbles and everything goes down with her