Fallen - Niam/Ziall/Ziam (Larry)

Chapter 6 -Cry me a river

Ugh.. Im getting kinda pissed now, Wattpad deleted this chapter two times ugh! But I want to get it up for you guys, so Ill just write it again, enjoy :)

Liam POV

I cant take it anymore, I dont know what to do. Im sitting here on my room, crying on the floor. I know, dont call me a baby, I just couldnt hold back the tears anymore. Everyday I put on a fake smile, but sometimes I just cant take it. I feel, empty,

I feel pure anger and hatred, towards Zayn. That name stings like poison in my mind, I dont want to hate him, but I do. I hate him for what he does, its like torture everyday. He takes every opportunity to flirt with Niall, or touch him, or make him smile. And when Niall smiles at something Zayn says, I cant help but feel sad, because I want to be the reason behind that smile.

But, I would do anything to make him smile, even if it means that I cant be the reason behind that smile. If I had to chose between Niall being happy, and me even being alive, I would definently chose him being happy.

Of course, if you are inlove, Im sure you would do the same, wouldnt you?

But maybe, I should try a new strategy. I have to man up, Niall will never be mine as long as I just sit here and cry. Yeah thats right.

Im going to make Niall mine, Im going to take a step forward.

And that fucking douchebag Zayn, isn't going to stop me.

Niall POV

Im currently sitting in the backseat of Louis' car, with Lou himself at the wheel and a very sleepy Harry in the passenger seat. Louis was holding Harrys hand and slowly brought it up to his lips and pecked it. Harry turned around from looking out the window and gave Louis a warm, loving smile.

I think its beautiful, they're relationship. Its like two old bog trees standing next to eachother in the forest. Even how many years that pass, how many windpuff may blow between them and try to make them fall, they wont. Its beautiful. I wished I could have a relationship like that.

With Liam, or Zayn. Liam is loving, caring, and he always makes sure everyone is happy, even if its on his cost. And Zayn, he always takes out the best in people. The way he tries to make people laugh if they're sad. Both of them are amazing and I love them, very much. I can say that I do, its not just a crush anymore. But I always have this feeling that I love Liam abit more. But when I do, I just think about Zayn and just how purely amazing he is (a/n Amazayn lol XD), and that feeling goes away. But the worst part is, they are both straight as rulers, because Liam dated Danielle and now some bitch named Sophia, (oops, sorry not so sorry) and well, Zayn is engaged to Perrie. Which of course breaks my heart, but if they are happy together then thats, fine. (Niall does not know that Sophiam and Zerrie is fake, MM have kept that a secret from Niall and oh, only MM knows he is gay, so far.)

But after being inlove with my two bandmates, who are also my best friends, for almost four years now, lets just say, my heart is getting tired. Its getting tired of being broken and never being fixed.

Sometimes I think about just ending all the pain, once and for all. But then, the fans would probably not take that so good, and the lads, I dont think they would wanna continue being One Direction without me. So, I'll just hold that thought for a while. I must sound crazy, talked about suicide like its the most casual thing, but I've gotten use to the idea and I probably am crazy too.

Sometimes, I think that its all a big dream, that I never auditioned for the Xfactor, that I never fell inlove and that when I wake up, I will wake up, 16 years old in Mullingar, Ireland. But I know that it isn't a dream, its real.

I wish I never fell inlove

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Im so glad Im finally updating, its been forever! Sorry if its short, Im writing this story on my iPad, sooo. But anywaysss please.....

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Seeyah! :)

- Alli