Fallen - Niam/Ziall/Ziam (Larry)

A/N please read!!

This is not an update. Sorry. Have my reasons.

First of all, Ive had two tests in school and one coming up... So..

And second, Ive been also really depressed. You may or may not already know that Im bisexual but my family doesnt know this. And Im not planning on telling them either because theyre homophobic. ...

Well, a few days ago my mom was reading in the newspaper about a women marrying another women. I thought it was beutiful (in my head ofc) but my brother said out loud: "Eww thats gross and soo wrong!!!" Yeah, I did some stuff I regret after that. My mom said it was disgusting and a sin. And I cant help but feel so.. Wrong. I feel wrong.

You should see my wrists. Right now theyre covered in scars. They sting badly but it feels good.

Im scared because my family hates who I am, which mean that they hate me. Im wrong, gross and disgusting.

A kid at school called me "rotten fag". I cut a deep cut after that.

A teacher said in class that gay is a sin and everyone who is gay will go to hell. My friends know and support me, but that day I did 10 cuts on my forearm.

I domt know what to do anymore. And to make it worse, the person Im in love with, will NEVER love me back.

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I love you all very much, more than you can imagine, even if I dont know your name, YOU are the one I love. I love you. Thank you.