Fallen - Niam/Ziall/Ziam (Larry)

Chapter 13- Confusion at its finest

Hello, long time no see! Yeah Im sorry, but I did say I was going to be back and here I am! Sorry...So, Cant Think Straight is now called Fallen, which I think is a much more fitting title, and its got more of a beauty-like clang to it, you know? It sounds better, it looks better, its easier to make a cover with a short name. Anyways, Im back, blah blah blah, this chapter is really short, whatever! I have had alot of personal problems going on in my life and honestly I needed a break. But here I am, and enjoy the chapter!

Nialls POV (present time)

"Im sorry Liam," I started mumbling and fiddling. I am kinda confused now, I thought I loved Liam? Well of course I love him, he is an amazing and wonderful person, but kissing him just felt so uncomfortable and weird, it felt like, kissing a family member, it just feels weird. No, I have never kissed one of my family members but you know what Im talking about.

It's just, Ive spent almost 4 years crushing on him, and falling inlove with him, and now all of this happened. He went to me and asked if he could kiss me and it felt strange and uncomfortable. And he also just said to me that he didnt enjoy it either. Like, what is my life.

"No, Niall, dont be sorry, I didn't enjoy it either and its not your fault! Look, I have kinda liked you for a while, almost two years, and now, when this happened I'm not sure. Please dont hate me, Im sorrry.." Liam rambled on. He, liked me?

"No Liam dont be sorry, I liked you too, for maybe 4 years." I said after taking a deep breath.

"You did? So you think just like me, that you dont really know?" Liam asked.

"Yeah, exacly, thats what I was thinking." I said. Then came a few seconds of silence, we didn't really know what to say. This whole situation is crazy, so is Liam gay or is he bi? Or did he just like me? I dont know if I should ask.

"Niall, are you gay?" Liam finally asked. It was becoming a rather akward silence and the conversation was still awkward.

"Yeah, Im gay, but I try to hide it, by flirting with girls sometimes and staying away from the stereotype." Because I was afraid, I did this. I was scared of what the world would say, or what my friends and family would think. Would they disown me or would they accept me, or just hate me? I honestly am just afraid of being hated for being me, so I pretend to be someone else.

"But Niall, how about Zayn? Do you, umh, like him?" Liam asked me, now looking into my eyes for the first time during

this conversation.

- Yeah I really like Zayn, he is sweet, I answered him looking back at him.

Liam did'nt say anything, he just reached forward and hugged me. I sighed and hugged him back tightly.

This is a mess.