Disclaimer: this chapter mentions self harm. If you do not want to read about it then don't read this chapter. Thanks. Have a good day.
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Tyler's POV:
I just got out of the hospital and now I am hanging out with josh. I'm on my phone. I see an advertisement to go in front of a lot of people and do a speech about how suicide is bad. It says they would pay us $150.
"Hey Josh. There is a job we could do for $150. We would have to go in front of people and do a speech. Do you want to do it?" I asked.
"Sure we could do it," Josh replied.
I took the job. I have to go in front of thousands of people in only 2 days. Oh god Um getting nervous. What if they don't like what I say? Oh god my anxiety is not helping.
Two days later...
Josh and I are backstage.
"I'm nervous. How about you?" I asked.
"I don't think we should do this. These people are all teens and the last thing they would want to hear is a speech of how suicide is bad," Josh said.
"Josh stop fighting with me. You agreed to this now let's go," I said as I grabbed his upper arm.
He didn't sleep at my house last night. He's always told me how he gets scared and a feeling when he sleeps at his house alone.
"Are you ready?" I asked and accidentally pulled up his sleeve.
I almost cry when I see what's there. There are 4 cuts on his wrist. I can't believe that josh cuts himself.
"Josh. Why didn't you tell me?" I asked.
"I knew you would get nervous about me," Josh replied.
"This is horrible josh," I said shakily.
"I know but I'm only at it again as an addict," Josh said.
"I need to do this show. You will not join me for it. I think we should talk afterwards," I said.
"Okay," Josh said.
I walked out on stage still worried about josh.
"Hello everyone. Tonight I was going to do a small speech on how suicide is bad and that stuff with a friend. The friend will not be joining me for private reasons but the first thing I want to say is that suicide is bad. I want to sing a song for you guys. I unfortunately do not have my piano with me tonight but I have the tune prerecorded. I hope you guys enjoy this song. It is called Guns for Hands," I said.
I started singing a song I have been working on for a while to a bunch of people. I never thought I would be in front of this many people singing. When I was done I went backstage and saw josh sitting there with apologetic eyes.
"Josh. I'm so sorry I got mad at you. I just don't think you should cut yourself," I said.
"Are we ok?" Josh asked.
"Yes," I said and hugged him.
We ended up going home and watched Netflix until we passed out.
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Hey guys. That was the chapter. The reason Jonny wasn't in it was because he stayed home and they went to a event. Thank you so much for reading. I hope you enjoyed.
