Silence

Thoughts

I salvaged through my thoughts today

A lot were deep and in dismay

I thought about people I love

And what would happen if they took the shove

I thought about hurting myself

Let's just say I took my blade off my shelf

I thought about this girl

She was beautiful but didn't know it because her head was in a whirl

I thought about going

But then I realized what would happen if I stopped showing

I thought about how my existence is quite a bother

Why can't you just tell me my flaws, please, another

All I think is sad, sad, sad

All I can feel is mad, mad, mad

Why can't I be happy?

Hi guys! Yes! I am alive. Okay, menatlly and emotionally no. But physically yes. I'm updating late tonight because my mom is sick and I am frantically trying to help her feel better. I'm still quite young and I don't know what to do. Gah. Things are a bit better in my life though. My friend is back. I have a boyfriend (shocker, I know!) But I took a look in the mirror tonight. I can't help but hate what I see. My thighs don't quite touch, but are still very wide. My stomach isn't completely flat and I'm just plain ugly. Ugh. Well, I guess this is goodnight. Love you darlings! STAY STRONG! YOU ARE POWERFUL!