I'M A CRAZY BITCH

Ch.8

●Some messed up thoughts●

Every single minute that passes in the day I'm thinking about what I'm gonna do. I'm not scared, I'm just worried about alot of stuff.

Worried about running away? Absolutely not. I'm very fond of the idea itself and can't wait to do it.

Worried about not having enough resources to runaway?
Not at all I'm planning something that will give me money for so long or at least long enough to find a job.

Worried abour dad's reaction?
Kinda but not really.

I'm worried abou-
"Miss Chloe answer my question!" The teacher said.

I stared at her blankly. What question?

"I'm sorry can you repeat it?" I said.

"What was Caroline's Bingley letter?"

Who the f is Caroline Bingley?!

"Um....I'm sorry I wasn't focusing." I said.

She wrote something on her sticky note.

"You have detention after this lesson since it's the last lesson anyway." She said as I walked to her to get the sticky note.

"Now. Who would like to answer me question?" The teacher asked.

•••

"Where to?" Elle asked as I was placing my novel in my locker.

"Detention." I answered quietly.

Thinking thinking thinking. Uggh why can't me decision be easy?

"CHLOE!" Elle nearly shouted.

"What?" I answered quietly.

She stopped walking and I continued slowly.

"Chloe what's wrong?" She asked.

"Nothing I'm just thinking Elle." I answered quitely.

"So you don't want pizza?" Ezra asked.

"What? No I want. Don't ever ask I always want pizza." I replied.

"Lmao alright there miss dreaming beauty then step over our place for some pizza after the detention." Elle said sarcasticly.

"What's our place?" Ezra asked.

"A tree house." I answered quickly.

"Chloeee!" Elle nearly shouted hitting me.

"What?" I asked bluntly.

"Uggh never mind." She said rolling her eyes.

"Here's my detention class gotta go." I said passing by them.

"What's up with her?" Ezra asked Elle and she sighed.

"She is thinking." She replied.

"Gotta stop her that's dangerous mate." Ezra said seriously.

And I took my seat before knowing what they said next.

••
Minutes minutes minutes. Uggh. My brain is gonna explode.

This is gonna be like really really dangerous.

The thing is I don't care I have nothing to lose anyway.

But then there's Sarah and a strange bond that I don't wanna lose.

But again I wanna know how it feels to feel free.

I know I'm gonna be evil for the very first time in forever. Like I'm rude but not evil. I think that very deep down somewhere in my stomach there's a good seed in me.

But like I still have nothing to lose.

But again there's Sarah.

Ohh my god my head is gonna explode.

••

"I'm home." I shouted loudly and was welcomed by Max who kept kissing me and barking so loudly.

"Maaax I missed youuu." I said patting his back warmly.

Ms. Williams came down the stairs in a hurry.

"Chloe are you okay???" She asked worriedly checking my out for any signs of  bruises like the ones I used to get from getting in fights when I was seven.

"I'm fine." I said calmly as max started to calm down.

She looked at me and silently took my packbag.

"Come on go get some rest. I will cook some red Italian pasta your favourite." She said with a very genuine smile and I couldn't help but smile back.

I walked slowly up the stairs and opened my old room.

Stepping in quitely I just watched everything colourful in my room and how it became so colourless and dead.

There was so much life here and suddenly I feel that the walls are dead.

I walked few steps and lied down on my bed.

Home. What a word. What a very warm word. When I remember home I get a feeling that the word is hugging me; such an un-explainable feeling but amazing as well.

Home is only found once. I always thought that when dad would came I would go home. But turns out that I was epicly wrong. Turns out that I was always home but I didn't recognize it that much untill today. Cause I felt lost in a roller-coaster of thoughts and I only wanted to go home. And it wasn't dad how I wanted to see it was Ms. Williams. Because i guess she and everyone here are my home.

Home isn't just about walls that you own or people that are only connected with you cause of blood cells flowing inside your body.  It's about these people that just love you deeply for you. It's about the people who are home.

I'm not sure if this makes any sense but I found my home in these few people. Cause they are a part of me and I think the bond that's connecting us is stronger that blood. It's love.

••

"I called your dad and said you and Elle have a project so you're staying over." Ms. Williams said as she gave me my dish of pasta.

"Thank you." I said quietly.

"Look Chloe. No matter what's on your mind. You know there's only one thing you should do." She said with so much calmness that it made me feel a little easy.

"Speak?" I asked.

"No. Draw." She answered. "Just draw. Get out everything you have inside. Get lost in a drawing Chloe it will make you feel better."

I stared at her silently. I just don't know how she knows me this much. It makes me speechless. How she decided to make us her children and loved us dearly for nothing in return.

I silently got up and hugged her.
"Never leave me Ms.Williams."

"I will never do Chloe. Remember we-"

"Became a family cause only we know what a family means." I said finishing her sentence.

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Author's note:
  I'M AWFUL I KNOW I KNOW.
I can't really imagine if I was the reader and after this long wait the author updated such a short awful chapter and caused me inner turmua.
Like why, me????
It's like really horrible but if you're the author I guess it feels even more awful cause I can't really update something good :')
But I hope I will write anything good soon.
Also ignore any typos because I didn't edit the chapter.
Please vote and comment cause it will motivate me to write really.
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-WL

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