(Completed) Sadness

Part 3 - Tears

Listen to 'Say Something' by A Great Big World, Christian Aguilera
Gareth's P.O.V

All afternoon, i kept breaking down only stopping when i had no more tears left to cry. The rain held its sad and depressing mood as it continuously patterned against the roof. The TV played in the background alone without attention just like me.

The fur who i hugged earlier mistakenly for Ian had told me that his name was Kal. He kept me company, hugged and held me whenever i needed, cared for me, gave me love and made me feel important. But there was one problem, it wasn't the love i wanted.

I wanted Ian's love.

I didn't talk much to him, only telling him my name. He seemed fine with it, sitting next to me making sure i was ok.

He made me a sandwich for dinner, even tho i wasn't hungry i managed to eat half of it feeling guilty if i didnt. It reminded of the sandwich's Kal made for me, again filling me with sadness along with everything else.

I occasionally thought i had seen him walk past the house only to realise it was my imagination. I could still smell him in my clothes from the last hug between us.

Everything was almost a blur with my eyes being constantly glazed with tears. My eyes burning from having them wiped repeatedly.

Soon my body couldn't take much more. Leaving me tired and curled up into a ball on the couch of a strangers place. My eyes narrowed slowly as time passed by. Soon i couldn't even force my self to stay awake anymore as i fell asleep.

-Dream-
I stood before Ian back beneath the rain, getting a rush of happiness that he stood before me. I ran over to him pulling him into another tight hug in lust for his love, but something was wrong. He felt cold. I looked up and could see a frown on his face as anger over took him.

He pushed me away causing me to stumble and fall onto a puddle making me cold as before, i could feel sadness and tears return inside of me. "How could i ever fall in love with someone like you" Ian growl.

I began to sob holding back my tears before he turning away and walking towards the car. "I'm sorry Ian" i pleaded but he didn't stop. He hoped in the car with out looking back or even acknowledging my existence. I couldn't hold back the tears any more as i curled up into a ball and cried.

Leaving me once alone as the red tail lights faded into the rain.
-End Dream-

Kal's P.O.V
I was startle away by a cry from the living room. "I'm sorry Ian" i heard as i flick the covers off me sweep by cool are sending a shiver up my spine. I hurried out of my room to Gareth.

He was huddled in a ball shivering and crying without a blanket which had been flung on the floor. I shook him waking him up from he sleep. He instantly sat up hugging me and crying into my shoulder. "Shh shh, its ok, it was just a dream" i said trying to be comforting as i hugged him back.

I once again felt heart broken and felt like i should be doing more.

He soon calmed down after about 15 minutes, it was the dead of night and the rain cease to stop but had lightened slightly. "Come on, you'll be sleeping with me" i said as he gave me a nod before i picked him up and carried him to my bedroom.

I had a double bed and placed him on the side i don't usually sleep on. I made sure he was comfortable before hopping back in on my side. "Goodnight" i said hoping he would be able to get some sleep, and maybe some for myself as i we still have our lives to live out.

I waited until he went to sleep, making sure he wasn't gonna get up and leave as i worried he would disappear forever. As he was sleeping he began to cry silently, so i pulled him closer into my chest feeling his cold body. I held him like his until he stopped before falling asleep myself.