Matt breaks the awkward silence and says "Oh hey Jenna, I just met Riley." He obviously doesn't notice Jenna glaring at me.
She turns around and looks at Matt; her big dazzling smile is back plastered on her face, "Oh cool Matt." Is all she manages to say. She just stares at him with a dreamy look on her face. Wow, I think that girl is obsessed with him. Matt starts laughing.
"Well girls I gotta go, it was nice meeting you Riley." Then he gives me a wink before striding out the door
"You to Matt!" I yell after him, I can't help but blushing.
"You bitch!" Jenna yells at me.
"What!?!? I didn't know he was "The Matt Dean!" I retorted
"Well he is, and you really need to stay away from him because I love him."
"Jenna honey, you can barley talk to him." I say softly.
Jenna pouts and comes over to sit beside me on the bed. "You're so lucky Riley, your totally smoking hot and you can talk to guys!? Why can you be so natural around guys? It's not fair."
"There's nothing to be scared of Jenna, I just pretend I'm talking to my dog!" I say teasingly. Jenna starts giggling, and pretty soon she can't stop. Yep that girl is totally wasted.
I help Jenna up and start walking her downstairs. I yell at one of the losers drinking beer next to the door to open it for me and he obeys. I see my shiny red Dodge Charger and silently say Hallelujah to myself, I put her in the car and by know she's half way asleep and I'm struggling trying to put her in the backseat. Once she's finally in I walk over to my side of the door and I stop in my tracks.
"MOTHER FUCKER!" I scream, I charge back into the house and walk in the middle of the living room where most of the party is taking place.
"Which one of you drunk ass douch bags scraped my car!?!"
Everyone is just staring at me like a pshyco.
I see I hand come up from behind a couple of guys.
"YOU, come here." I snarled
When the guy comes out I stop breathing. He's surprised for a second to, and then he quickly puts a smug smile on. I start breathing again and Chase walks towards me, I walk back. I stop as I hit a wall and Chase walks in front of me.
"Hey baby." He says with an evil grin.
This can't be happening, I can't even talk.
"What's wrong baby? Surprised? You must be the girl that choked good ole John here. You know, you're the only girl I know who chokes someone for hitting on them." He says with amusement. "What are you doing here anyway?"
"I..I'm going to Ridgeway now." I mumble.
"Oh really, that's great baby, now I can see you more, I've really missed. We had so much fun last year, didn't we?"
I cringe my face at this comment and try to sidestep him. But I fail, he moves when I try to maneuver my way around him.
"Aww leaving so soon baby?"
"I umm I gotta go, Jenna's waiting in the car."
"Ohh Jenna..I remember her, well okay; I'll see you at school tomorrow right?"
I shake my head yes and head towards the door. I feel I hand on my shoulder and I stop.
"I almost forgot, what about the scratch on your car baby? You want me to come over later and fix it?"
"NO..um no." I say a little to loudly.
He chuckles darkly and slaps my but as I leave.
When I get in my car, I break down in sobs; I am thankful that Jenna is asleep so I can cry without her asking me what's wrong. I haven't seen Chase since last year. He moved in the middle of the year. I was so elated that he moved I didn't even bother to find out where he moved to. Chase and I went out last year and I thought I loved him and I was pretty damn sure he loved me to. But as we started dating he would pressure me more and more to have sex with him. I loved him but I wasn't ready to have sex. This angered him and we would get in fights over it. One night when my parents were gone and my brother was at a friend's house Chase came over. We had had a big fight earlier that day about sex and I was happy he came over because I was hoping he came to tell me he was sorry and all that jazz. But when I opened the door, the smell of alcohol hit me head on and I almost gagged. I was furious. I told him to leave and that made him mad, he barged in and closed the door behind him. He grabbed me by the hair and started pulling me to the couch. I kicked and screamed but this only fueled him more. He started yelling and cussing at me and telling me that I'm a tease and he deserved some ass from me since he put up with all my shit. I cried and begged him to stop. He threw me on the couch and ripped off by pajama shorts and tank top. He started kissing my mouth and moved down to my jaw and neck. He took off my bra and underwear. He took off his shirt and pants and forced my legs open. I could feel his penis touching me and I screamed louder. I was pleading with him to stop; he just laughed and said I was getting what I deserved. He pushed himself into me and I cried out in pain, this pleased him and he thrusts himself harder in and I was almost numb with pain. After he had raped me I just layed there shaking on the couch, in horrific pain. Tears were rolling down my face, Chase knelt beside me and said with venom dripping from each word, "If you tell anyone about this, I will kill your family, I will kill your friends, and I will kill you last. Do you understand me baby?"
I shook my head yes horrified. I closed my eyes and listened as he gathered his clothes and left. I got up and winced in pain, I gathered up my torn clothes and put them in a trash bag. There was blood rolling down my leg and I had bruises on my tortured body. After that day, I started cutting myself, in the hopes that one day I would cut deep enough and my pain would end. But as the year went, Chase changed schools and I was ecstatic, I would no longer see his smug smile playing on his lips when he looked at me. I stopped cutting myself and was pretty much the same person. There was one thing that changed about me, I stopped dating, I couldn't do it. Even thinking about kissing a guy made me think of Chase and that's something I would gladly forget. Looks like the nightmare that used to play in my head over and over again last year is going to return. I went under my seat and grabbed the shiny razor. I cut myself and watched as the shiny red blood crawled down my arm.
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