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Dans P.O.V
Well I guess I'm awake now, I try to force myself back to sleep but it's no use and I don't have any sleeping pills due to my last incident.. I wake up not wanting to leave my bed and I go get changed into black jeans, black top and black jacket, I've always thought of bright colours where for happy people and I'm not.. I'm the mistake. And I'm here again thinking about how worthless I really am no matter how hard I try and avoid it, it doesn't work I'll always be the mistake and the unwanted one.. I try and shake these thought out of my head but I can't. I go in my beside drawer and get out a tiny box, the box that hides my happiness and freedom. I open the box to see my shiny blades I pull up my sleeve to reveal loads of cuts I have previously made and I make more and I cut all up both of my arms, that should do it for today I think to myself and I grab my laptop and go on YouTube searching for people until I come across a channel called 'AmazingPhil' I click on his videos and he's really funny and cute and looks the same age as me.. in the descriptions left his twitter name so I quickly log in on my twitter @DanIsNotOnFire and follow him and tweet him
@DanIsNotOnFire: hey @AmazingPhil I really like your videos! I hope we can become friends
God Dan your so stupid you probably scared him away by your ugly face c'mon everyone knows your ugly and worthless why would you even try to make a friend? Why are you so damn selfish? I feel tears well up in my eyes and I go to delete the tweet until I see that someone replied to it.. I couldn't see who because my eye sight was blurry I quickly blink away my tears and go on my notifications and see he replied to me
AmazingPhil replied to me what the actual fuck why does he care about me? I'm just a random fan as I eagerly look at his response
AmazingPhil: awww @DanIsNotOnFire thank you so much and of corse! Direct message me anytime ^_^
Omg omg omg I'm freaking out!! He actually wants to be friends?! Why?! How?! Is all that's running through my mind, I'm sat on my bed with the biggest smile I ever had I didn't think it was possible, I'm smiling for the first time in over 16 years and it's all thanks to phil.. phil lester.. my happiness
Maybe it does get better..
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Lust
RomanceDan is a normal boy, he gets abused by his dad whom killed his mum in front of him, he gets blamed for being alive and one day goes on the internet and just by fate meets someone who changes his life..
