Truth of horrid choices

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I wake up and go the bathroom to see my cuts. I need to wear a long sleeve shirt today. The cuts are deep and are still bleeding. I wrap a bandage around them and walk to school after I get ready. I avoid everyone and bring my shirt lower so even the slightest show of my scars don't show. "Kai!" I turn around and see Seth. I bring my sleeves lower.

"What's going on. Why are you bringing your shirt lower?" Seth asks. I shake my head and walk away. After some hours school was over and I rushed home. I bandaged the cuts and went to the mirror.

"Why..?" I say. "You did good" my reflection seemed to say to me. "no..." I say. "Just face your truth. Your truth is the best one you can get" "NO" I yell. I start to cry. I grab the knife and deepen the cuts. Great, more blood. There was a sudden knock at the door. I rush to it and quickly hide the cuts. It was Ajax.

"Hi Ajax!" I greet. I then wince because I touched a cut with my sleeve. "Are you ok Kai?" He asks, looking at my sleeves. His eyes go wide and I look at them. Blood is coming through them. He lifts up my sleeve and sees the cuts. He looks at me and I drop to my knees.

"I'm sorry" I say from tears. Ajax just looks at me. "We need to get you cleaned up. Where is your first aid kit?" He says. I sat up and sniffle. "No. I'll do it." I say. I start walking away when he grabs my waist. "Let me go Ajax" I say. "No. I'm helping you. End of this" He picks me up and takes me to the couch. He finds the first aid kit and cleans the cuts.

"Why do you do this?" Ajax asks suddenly. I shake my head, not wanting this conversation to go any further. He takes the hint and stops.

Once he was done we talk for a bit. Once he leaves I decide to call Luna. "Hello?" Her voice says from the other line. "Hey Luna" I say. "Hi Kai! I have some good news!" She exclaims. "What is it?" I question. "Me and my husband are moving to Nyumi!(random city name)" I squeal in delight. I hear her laugh. "Oh yeah. We are also moving next door to you" She adds. Another squeal. She laughs and we talk for a bit.

"How's your depression? You can tell me anything" I stop and stay still. "I-I- I cut my wrists again. So deep you can see t-the bone" I say, starting to tear up a little. "Oh Kai. Me and Adam will be there tomorrow." She says. I say goodbye and hang up.

(SORRY THIS GOT SO DEPRESSING IM CHANGING IT SOON DONT WORRY IT WONT BE THIS SAD ANYMORE)