I just woke up and the first thing I did was reach for my phone and goto Instagram. Low and behold I have a few messages and comments. One stood out more than the others. Somebody with the user name @inhisimage commented " perfect" under my most recent picture. Being the type of person I am I respond simply with " thank you love." Then I get up and brush my teeth and wash my face. Thank god that I'm on winter break from college and I'm off from work today! When I go back into my room --I check my phone again. @inhisimage DM'd me and asked for my number. That's what made me click on his profile. He was god like. He had skin like gold and eyes as green as the grass. I thought " of course u can have my number." But I kept scrolling. Then I came across a photo posted 2 weeks ago and my heart stopped. He was sitting in a wheel chair. Don't get me wrong he was gorgeous-- almost to gorgeous for me--Definitely my type but the thought of him being in a wheelchair made me a little Anxious. But then Something in my heart told me to give him my numbers so I did . Within 5 minutes he Texts me.
"Hey beautiful."
"Hey wassup handsome."
"Nothing much but I'm so infatuated with your face."
"Lol thanks but why"
"Because you're my type to a T. Brownskin, brown eyes, long hair, nice body and beautiful smile."
"Thank you again boo... Honestly you're my type too kinda."
"It's just a chair love."
"No I didn't mean that."(I lied)
"You don't have to be afraid to ask me about my chair and how I ended up in it but what's your name."
"Carmen."
"My name is Nate."
"N2MU"
"You wanna link later on?"
"Sure why not?" But let's meet in a public place you could be a crazy killer lol ."
"Okay bet." Oak wood mall? In front of dat dog at 6pm?"
"Okay see you there boo."
*5:15*
"SHHHHITT I DONT KNOW WHAT TO WEAR" I said aloud but it was only me in the room. Then I decided on a v neck shirt, black shorts, some knee boots and a cardigan. After I was dressed I did a quick beat on my face and was out the door. At 5:45 I arrived at oak wood but I didn't go to the food court until 6:03. Ya girl don't wanna seem desperate you feel me?
I walk up and there he was -- wheel chair and all. I'm not gonna lie I forgot that he was in a wheel chair tbh but honestly seeing it all I could do was try not to stare and avoid eye contact because he would definitely be able to tell that I was a bit shook!
"Hey love" I said.
He reached out for a hug. Not wanting to make things uncomfortable I bend over to hug him and we make our way to a table to sit down.
"Why are you avoiding eye contact Carmen? He asks. "I'm not I'm just a bit nervous." I reply. In my head I felt like everybody was looking at us and judging me and pitying him. Then he blurted out "I was training for the NFL and I broke my neck." Me and a few people all looked at him and then I said the first thing that came to my mind. " that's fucked up Bruh." He laughed and said "there we go! Get comfortable. Don't feel like you have to pacify me or tip toe around my chair. It's just a chair.I promise I'm normal and I'm on the road to recovery. I was paralyzed from neck down but Now the only thing that doesn't work yet is my legs."
"Do you think that they'll ever work again?" I asked
"You damn right they will." He replied
After a little small talk I volunteered to go order our food at the counter but he insisted on going.
As I sat alone I thought to myself "he's handsome,sweet and funny.. Are you gonna let that wheel chair stop you from giving him a chance?" That's when I knew I wasn't going to be shallow and I was going to give Nate a real chance. Shit.. Im not perfect either. Im not paralyzed but I have anxiety through the roof , I struggle with my weight and I'm emotionally damaged. If he can see beauty in my damaged ass I can see the beauty in him which won't be hard because he's gorgeous.
He came back with two orders of white trash fries and two chick fil a milkshakes. The wheel chair was going to take some time to get use to but I think I really like this guy.
I made it home at about 9:10 and I saw my ex drew car parked in my parking space. Uggh this nigga think he can use me as his back up when his new chick Chanel decides to act up. I park my car on the street and get out to knock on his window. He rolls the window down and a cloud of smoke hits me.
" first of all nigga why you in my parking space and second of all why are you hot boxing in my driveway?!?"
"Man where the hell you been at Carm?"
"Third of all my name is Carmen not Carm you're not my nigga don't be calling me no nickname and 4th of all I been out with a friend."
"It better be a girl friend."
"Speaking of girlfriend where is yours because I know I'm not her for you to be checking for me like you got a check for me."
"What's this nigga name cause from how you acting I know it's a nigga ."
"Nate." I said with confidence and a attitude
"Nate.. The one who own the barber shop on broad street? Don't tell me you homie hopping.
"Nah nigga."
"Well I only know one other Nate and I know I ain't do you so dirty that you messing with handicapped niggas now."
I thought to myself "shit I shouldn't have entertained this nigga drew."
Then he said "I'm guessing by the look in your eyes you messing with that paralyzed nigga.. I hope his tongue work cause if he can't walk I know he can't do other things."
I snapped " don't worry bout me or mines. Worry bout you and yours cause I heard she out here bopping and thotting all around." Then I walked off and went inside. I texted drew " be out my drive way In 5 min or I'm sounding the alarms fool."
