too much

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Alex pov
After lunch the day sped by and before I knew it, it was time to go home. I was looking for Laney Luke walked up and said "hey Want to walk together? Or are you waiting for something?" I nodded my head "is it.... your sister?" I looked at him like he was insane, how did he know I have a sister "are you wondering how I knew?" What the he||? Is he reading my mind? "Well she's right behind you!" Just as he said that Laney jumped out of the bush that was behind me and pushed me into Luke" aww come on Luke did you have to tell her!?" Laney started walking and me and Luke followed her " so Macy? I mean Alex what's up with you? Why are you so skinny? And why do you talk so weird? And also why do you wear so much make up?" Laney was going on and on asking me all type of different questions so I decided not to answer any of them "hey Luke can you answer any of my questions?" Laney looked over at Luke "well I don't know what you mean by 'what's up with you?' But I think she's so skinny because she works out a bunch, she doesn't talk weird it's probably cause she's nervous or maybe she just always stutters? And she probably wears make up because she can" Luke looked over at me "did I get that right?" I didn't meet his gaze instead I kept looking forward then said "1 o-out of 3 r-right" Luke and Laney looked even more confused but before they could ask anymore questions we had come to Laney's house, I ran into my room and closed the door and locked it then went to the bathroom and looked at myself in the bathroom mirror, my make up wasn't as dark as it used to be and I wasn't as skinny as I wanted to be, I decided to get in the shower and when I did I noticed the bathroom door was open so I washed the shampoo out of my hair and grabbed my towel I dried my face with my towel as I walked to the door so I could close it but when I got my face off the pillow like towel the door was already shut and locked. That's weird I could have sworn it was open.. whatever I was probably just imagining it but when I was dressed I looked in the mirror again this time I noticed something... weird when I looked really close to the mirror I could see something.. like there was a room back there... OMG IT WAS A ONE WAY MIRROR!!! SOMEONE IS OVER THERE AND IS WATCHING ME!!! At first I thought someone really was watching me then I saw...it wasn't really a one way mirror.. I guess I'm just paranoid..sense I'd rather not prove to myself how stupid I really am I decided to let some stress out so I went over to my bags and pulled out my one true friend then I started to draw. Unlike other people I don't cut uneven lines I actually make art, but I draw what I feel like today I'm making a broken heart on my wrist, I had scared art all over my body and it was beautiful. After I cleaned up my broken heart I knew I had gone down just the right amount not enough to kill me but enough to scar, I'm not suicidal I just don't care if I die just as I was about to put my friend up I herd a knock on my door, I ran and put my friend up and opened the door "dinners ready" Laney said then bolted up the stairs *sigh* I knew this was going to happen I slowly made my way up the stairs and into the dining room to find Diana and Laney sitting and waiting for me "ah! Alex here sit down I'll get you some food!" I sat down and asked Laney "w-where's your d-d-dad?" Laney looked up at me and rolled her eyes and said "work, again" she looked really sad he must not be here a lot "here you go sweetheart eat up!" Diana said and handed me a plate full of food 'ew' I thought no I'm not anorexic or anything I just hate being fat and food makes you fat so I hate food "I-i-um-" Laney interrupted me "like I said mom me and Alex already ate so we're not really hungry" once she said this she looked at her food and for a moment i swear I saw her look at it the way I used to, when I had just decided to stop eating unless I had to "oh..ok then I'll put this in the fridge if you change your mind" as Diana took our food and went to the kitchen " Alex come with me!" Laney whispered and ran upstairs, I followed her and she went to her bedroom and locked the door " so your starving yourself?" "N-no I just don't want t-to be f-f-fat a-and fo-od makes y-y-you fat so I D-don't l-like food" as I finished Laney nodded her head making her golden hair bounce "I see, I just recently started but I just try not to eat. I always end up doing it so I throw it up!" When she finished she smiled "H-how much d-do you w-w-weigh?" When I asked her she jumped up and ran to her bathroom and when she came back she had a scale and put it down she just stared blankly at it then looked at me and whispered "you first" I nodded and stepped on the scale she turned around to give me privacy, cautiously I stepped on the scale, it was calculating my weight 'you probably just got fatter and it's about to break you pig!' What the he||? Who was that? Whatever it's about to show 126.5. I lost 3 pounds in 2 weeks yay! I got off and waited until my weight disappeared "I-i-I'm done" I said Laney got on the scale and I turned around "oh yay! I lost 5 pounds! You can turn around now!" When Laney said this she said " I was trying to give you privacy but I can't stand it! How much do ya weight?" She looked so eager I was kinda scared to tell her "126.5" when I said this I looked down shamefully "hey! That's really cool! I weigh 123.5 so it's practically the same!" She looked so happy I didn't think that there was ever any way she could be sad "anyways!i know I have anorexia and bulimia so what do you have?" "I-I-I haven't b-Been to a d-doctor about this s-stuff so I don't k-know but j-just guessing I guess I-I have both" when I said this her eyes lit up"so we're practically the same! In both ways!" I don't think it's a good thing that she knows my secret but you know what I don't care, I don't know but it's just something about her...I feel like I can really trust her after me and Laney talked about starving ourselves a little bit more she suddenly asked"so do you cut?"when she asked this at first I thought about lying to her but.. I don't know I just don't think I could lie to her"yes" I said as quietly as I could she slowly reached towards my wrist and tried to pull my sleeve up, I didn't know what to do so I froze then at the last second I pulled away, she was so confused she Just stared at me then she looked like she understood"so..I'm going to take a shower..I'll see you in the morning" then she got up and left then I walked down to my room and fell on my bed leaving this strange world behind...