one day | myg + jhs

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i have a friend

a friend who

i love ever so dearly

I opened the door to his apartment , frantically running around , trying to find him.

i have a friend

a friend who

helped me go to

the right path

"Yoongi! Please open this door!" I cried , banging on the locked bedroom door. I just kept on banging and kicking until I broke the door down.

i have a friend ,

a friend on whom

i made promises with.

a friend who

broke the promises

one by one.

and that was when i saw Yoongi , lying close to the edge of his bed, his bedsheets are soaking in his own blood. An opened pill bottle on his right , wounded arm.

Yoongi looked at me with emptiness on his eyes , he looked dead. I rushed over to his side , sat down next to him and slowly placed his head on my thighs , shaking.

i have a friend

a friend who

i wanted to save.

"Yoongi please , dont leave me." My lower lip quivered. Then Yoongi slowly looked at me and for a little bit i found hope.

He could've taken the pills as soon as I knocked down his door. I quickly dialed an ambulance but a cold , thin and pale hand stopped me.

I looked down at Yoongi with a heartbroken look , not wanting him to do this. Tears were falling down fro my chin to his cheek.

"dont." he whispered , his once plump and red lips were now chapped and losing it's color. His eyes were slowly shutting but I know he's trying his best not to

"Hyung please dont leave me , we still have a lot to talk about—i still have a lot to say to you—" he stopped me mid sentence by placing his hand on my cheek and gave me a small smile.

i had a friend.

he goes by min yoongi

and i love him.

but i never got a chance

to say it to him.

and then thats when his hand turned limp , his eyes shut close , and his smile gone. I cried and cried and cried for who knows how long , just clutching Yoongi in my arms , hoping to bring him back.

"yoongi hyung please , you havent even got the chance to hear of my apology , of my true feelings. hyung please dont leave" I whimpered

and then thats when his alarm went off. I read its label ;

to hoseok , my everything. check my drafts.

and that broke my heart even more , now aware that yoongi already had planned this and i was the last person in his mind despite me ignoring his messages and got cold to him.

I unlocked his phone , seeing tons and tons of drafts in which all are addressed to me.

—these are the words that i wanted to say that failed to reach you. i wanted to be selfish. i really do. i wanted to take you from taehyung myself but who am i to strip away your happiness?