Caution: some swearing and suicidal thoughts and actions.
We pulled up and I got out of the car and he walked up to the door and opened it letting me in, it was small but super nice! I smiled as he showed me around.
He blushed as he showed the bedroom, he only has one bedroom so we have to share because of this. I giggles at his embarrassed demeanor.
°month later ×🌗×°
I sat in the shower as the hot water sprinkled my bare skin. I cried silently as seven was working, hacking something or should I say practically everything.
"JUST CUT y/n! NO ONE FUCKING CARES ANYMORE. LOOK WHERE YOU ARE! THE ONLY REASON SEVEN OR SAY-SAY IS HERE AND LETTING YOU STAY IS BECAUSE OF GUILT!.. So come on y/n, it's just one time."
I always gave into the voice. It was the only thing I could take to in these situations. Everyone else is busy. I sobbed quietly as I grabbed the razor and slid it over my wrist one... twice.. three times.. that turns into 8 times and blood was slowly washing down the drain.
I felt relived of some sort. This makes me feel alive, human if you will. I got out of the shower bandaged both my wrists and changed only wearing one of Say-Says way oversized hoodies.
I walk out the bathroom and I walk into the small work area Say-Say is in. I sit on the small love seat that's somewhat near him. He continues to hack away. Then he slowly turns and looks at me, giving a small smile. "Hey princess" he adjusted his eyes and saw what I was wearing. He shot up out of his chair and he landed with his back against the wall and had a dark blush on his face and his nose bled slightly. I smiled and stood up jumping on Say-Says back "Onwards to the kitchen, I need food!" He laughed and ran to the kitchen.
We both ate a small lunch and I made seven eat a cup of fruit. His eat habits were horrible, nothing but the ' holy honey buddah chips' and doctor pepper. I'm trying to even it out with some protein and healthy foods here and there.
He pecks me on the lips and blushes like a fool before he runs off back to work. I stood there dumbfounded. Even though we confessed our love for each other and we were dating, I still haven't gotten use to the affection and attention part. I always got these weird sparks and it sent butterflies to my stomach. I loved it oddly.
I tidied up around the apartment and did small things here and there. It was hard with my wrists, they hurt so badly. I didn't know what made doing this to myself that makes me so relieved and makes me feel human, but maybe it's the pain that makes me feel human? I'm not sure. Pain is always with you, it's the center of everything.
As I get lost in my thoughts someone knocks on the door and I jump startled, letting out a little scream.
A/n: HEY GUYS! third chapter! Hope y'all enjoy this book, I know I'am! Also I made this weird blue cat with a white tail out of these aqua bead things, it's going to be our 'book mascot!' 😂 I know ridiculous but whatever. I need suggestions for names! Thanks! See ya next chapter, DarkLuna out!! ✌🌙🌘🌗
