Do you really love me?

Spagehtti and Cupacakes

Sunday- 15/2/16
I couldn't sleep all night, I was so worried about making it on the to show. I run into my closet and grab a pair of black dance shorts and a black crop top I put a adidas jacket and pants over them. I rush out the door holding my penny board and get to the studio as soon as possible.

I get there and everyone is already there. Miss Kate brings out the clipboard and starts reading out names. Abi, Myles(Noah), Jessy, Jordan(Giselle), Victoria(Michelle), Brittany(Riley), Trevor(James), Logan(Amanda), Issac (Eldon) and Caleb. My world just fell apart. I grab my bag and rushed out of the room. Someone grabbed me by the wrist and yanked me back. I knew it was Caleb "hey, it's alright, you can try out next season" he smiled, right there I snapped "ITS NOT ALRIGHT, I HAVE BEEN TRAINING ALL MY LIFE FOR THIS AND IT HAS ALL GONE DOWN THE DRAIN BECAUSE-BECAUSE YOU CAME,IF YOU DIDNT TRY OUT IM SURE I WOULD HAVE MADE IT-ITS ALL YOUR FAULT" I shout and cry, his expression changed almost immediately "dont go around blaming people for your own messy problems, it's not my fault that I seem to be a better dancer than you" and he walks away leaving me speechless.

All weekend I felt horrible of what I said to Caleb. I didn't mean to say those words I just was upset and angry that I didn't make it in and I took all the anger out on Caleb. Ugh I'm such a horrible person why would I say those words, I haven't ever blamed anyone for my problems. I should go and apologise, but I'm scared. Ok I have to do this, I have to fix what I have made wrong. I heard that he likes spaghetti and muffins so I'm going to make those for him.

As I was finishing off the muffins the door bell rang. I closed the box and opened the door. I can't believe my eyes. I blinked once, I blinked twice he was still there. I couldn't breathe I forced something out of my mouth " Caleb imsorryishoudlnthaveshoutedatyouimsososososorrypleaseforgiveme"I rushed "I'm sorry i didn't get the last part can you repeat it slowly" he laughed "I'm so so so so sorry Caleb please forgive me" I said "I do and" he burst out laughing he hold up his phone and it has a recording of me begging for his apology. Oh no it's his ring tone, I snatch his phone and try and delete it but he grabbed me by the waist and slung me over his shoulder carrying me into the kitchen. I see the plate of cupcakes and I grab a cupcake with the most frosting on it and smash it into his face when he put me down smirking. Now who's smirking now I thought to myself. I just came to realisation I'm so weird. He screamed so loudly I was scared "my face, my face, my beautiful face" he faked cried but failed miserably.

He stayed for dinner and I made more spaghetti for him and my parents. My parents were having a conversation with him but more my mum. My dad kept sending looks at Caleb and I could tell Caleb was getting nervous. I squeezed his hand under the table. I looked over at him and nodded.

Even though I felt like everything went down hill I still have some hope because of Caleb he seems to just lighten my mood. The only person that has ever done that for me was Myles and now he is far from lightening my mood. It would be very awkward to see him at school now though, I wish none of this had happened and I can start all over again. Why do such bad things happen to me.

When we finished dinner Caleb and I went upstairs to my room. He walked around my room and looked at a few photos. "You have a really nice house" he said "thanks" I replied not knowing what to say. "What movie do you wanna watch?" I asked "she's the man" we both say at the same time "I love the movie" we both shouted. The best part of she's the man was when she sent the cheese to Duke cause it's so sweet oh and the part when she scored the goal. It is the best movie in the whole entire universe I have watched it a gabagillion times.

We turned the movie on. It was really good I looked over at Caleb he is so cute, he was getting really into the movie, it was the cutest thing I've ever seen. My eyes were starting to feel heavy and within minutes I have fallen asleep. I had a dream that Caleb and I went to Paris together on my 18th birthday and we kissed in front of the Eiffel Tower, it was amazing. I woke up and I was in the arms of Caleb. He looks so innocent when he is asleep, his mouth hangs open a little and soft snores escape his mouth.

I remembered that it is a school day so I quickly but quietly hopped out of bed and jumped into the shower. I got out and realised that I had to pick out my outfit so after I brush my teeth and tame my messy hair. I walk out of my room and open the door to my closet. I grabbed a pair of high waisted skinny jeans and a grey crop top along with adidas fluxes and my favourite black and white adidas backpack.

I tiptoe back into my room and I jump on Caleb scaring him. He worked up looking shocked but then he realised where he was. "Schools today" I laugh "awwww I don't want to go" he says "I need to go grab some clothes, pick you up in 15" he says "k bye" I say waving at him "byeeeeee see ya later alligator" he laughs and walks out.
I walked over to my vanity and did my makeup. Firstly I applied some bb cream, then I did my eyebrows, added some eyeshadow, did my winged eyeliner, mascara, contour, highlight, and lastly a kylie matte lip kit in poise k. I quickly walked down stairs and greet my parents. I eat some grilled cheese and say bye to my parents I walk to my front porch to be greeted by Caleb, I don't think anyone can get any cuter than that. I falling so hard. I don't want to risk my heart being broken again though.

Hey guys I'm currently on holiday and I'll try and update as much as possible. I hope you enjoyed this chapter and don't forget to vote, comment and follow.

Xoxo-michelle💖