Dear Joellen, 12/31/16
I miss you so much.
I am sad and depressed beyond explanation and words.
I don't know what to do about this, though.
I wish things could have been different.
I looked up to you.
I wish I could've gotten to know you better.
I wish I could've helped.
I love you so much, but, I didn't even know that until you were gone.
Why did you have to leave?
I just can't understand, and I won't understand, ever.
It will forever be a mystery to me.
I wish I'd known I'd loved you, and had gotten to tell you.
Everybody misses you.
Especially your mom.
Although I can't say much for or about her.
I promise I'm trying my best to improve our relationship for you.
I want to get along with her, I just don't know why it's so freaking hard for me.
Theres not a day that goes by where I don't think of you Joellen.
Not a day that goes by where I think of what could've been.
You had my drawings in your Dorm Room, does that mean anything?
Did you love me?
Did you care, and I didn't know?
I guess I will never know.
I miss you beyond words, and hope that you're reading this somewhere up there, in Heaven.
Love you forever,
Ava❤️
YOU ARE READING
Joellen
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