Can You See Me?

chapter 2 Anna

I woke up with this sad memory for dream. I looked out the window and saw my car and a hurt bird flopping around. I walked to kitchen and saw her withered away flowers in the same spot, as was her note. A tear ran down my cheek as I caught a glimpse of my dream. I showered, then got ready for work, not bothering to eat breakfast because it didn't really seem important to my life cycle. All I do now is wake up, shower, work, eat lunch, work some more, go home, mourn then go to sleep with the sad memories of Arebelle.

        On my way to work, I saw a couple walking down the street holding hands. I began to sob at the memory of me and Arebelle. I turned on Sandy road and pulled into the steak shop parking lot. "Hey" Kyle said, " Are you alright man? You look like you've been crying." 

     " It's hard man, it really is. But you don't worry, I'm fine."

     " Alright, just remember it wasn't your fault." Kyle said with a firm pat upon my back,  "can you run the register today? Anna cancled on coming in?"

      " I guess so." I didn't really have a preference anymore, there were no real emotions left in me. I trudged over to the counter and clocked in. I stood behind the counter for four hours, but there were no customers. I began to.... fall...asleep.

     DING!

The entrance door opened. "Good afternoon ma'am. Umm... What can I get you?" I scanned the woman as she walked toward me, she had long red hair, and dark brown eyes. She was wearing skinny jeans and a dressy green shirt. she was very stunning but she gave me an odd look when I asked.

     "Why are you behind the counter? I thought I was supposed to stand back there today."

    " What?" who is she. is this Anna? I mean it could be. I've never seen or met Anna.

    " I'll go talk to Kyle. Just stay here. Oh and by the way I'm Anna." She smiled and walked back out of the door. She spoke so calmly. Well she just spoke sweetly, or nice. I don't really know, but something was up with her. I tapped on the marble counter for about five minutes until the girl, Anna walked in with Kyle.

      "Anna can take over the front counter and I guess you could just wait tables. If that's okay..." Kyle said.

     "Yeah. Sure that sounds okay." I glanced at Anna and then at Kyle and walked from behind the counter. I sat at the closest table to the window, and put my head down.

      "Is he okay?" Anna whispered to Kyle.

       " He is in a hard spot right now. It's not my place to tell his story." Kyle said loud enough to make sure that I heard him. It almost sounded as if he was annoyed by her concern.

     I heard the door ding again and I assumed that was Kyle walking out.

" Hey. Are you okay?" I looked up to see Anna standing beside me.

     "Yeah. Sure. I'm fine." I didn't really know what to say.

     " I'm really sorry if I came across rude earlier. I'm Anna."

     " Its nice to meet you Anna. I'm not trying to be rude either but can you please leave me alone. I'm not really big on the whole conversation thing."

      " Yeah... Sorry I guess." She started to walk away so I put my head down. then I heard her footsteps getting louder, as she got closer to me. She sat in the chair next me and put her head down so that her face was right in front of mine. "I am not here to conversate with you, I'm here to assure that you are okay. If you ever want to talk, I'm right over there at the counter. Don't bother getting annoyed by me because my manager switched my shift so I have all morning hours, Kyle said you do too. So you need to get used to me being concerned about you." She smiled waited for my reply.

      " I don't talk to anybody really. Even if we have the same hours. the only reason I still talk to Kyle is because he is like a brother to me. Sorry to burst your bubble but I'm not interested in getting to know you." I know that came out harshly but I don't want her trying to tag along everywhere I go and trying to give me pity if she hears about my past.

   "We'll have to change that then, won't we?" She smiled at  and then got up and walked back to the counter. I don't really know what to think of her... I haven't really talked to any one since Arebelle. I miss her so much, maybe if I would've chosen her over work... maybe I could've saved her... I walked into the bathroom and cried in the corner. I can't live without her, I can't go on this way.

Kyle walked in and turned to me. He knelt down in front of me, "Listen bro, I know it's hard, but you have to keep pushing on. You are going to have to get back out there, it's almost lunch hour and you know how crowded it gets out there. I'm sorry but we are short on staff right now." He patted me on the back and stood up. We walked back into the dining area as I wiped away my tears.

Anna came running to me, I nudged her away, I didn't need her sympathy nor did I need Kyle's. This is something I can either learn to live with or die with. "Are you okay?" Anna whispered.

     "Please just stop, I'm fine." I cut back at her. Anna began to frown...

     Ding!

She turned away from me, " Hi! How are you doing?"

    " I'm fine" The man said with a smile.

    " Well have a seat and Ain...ion" She choked up when she said my name., "Will be over there to get your order." She smiled at him. He walked to the table that I had been sitting at only moments ago. I walked over to him and he frowned at me. He looked older so I didn't want to treat him with any disrespect.

    "What can I get for you sir?" I tried to force a smile.

    " I want a number four with ranch as the sauce and a large coke." He kept frowning at me.

    " Alright cool. I'll have your food back in a few minutes." I walked to the counter and handed Anna the order ticket. She kept her eyes on the floor the whole time. I wasn't trying to be mean or to beat down her ego, but I'm not interested in getting her pity, or friendship.

  Hours passed, and I waited at least fifty people. Before I knew it, it was ten. Closing time.

    Anna ran over to me as I clocked out. "Hey, look I know I'm pushy... but I'm only trying to help. If you really want me to leave you alone, I will."

    " Look, I'm not trying to hurt your feelings but I don't really have feelings anymore. Kyle and I grew up together and if it weren't for him then I wouldn't have a job. I owe everything to him. I just don't want to make you hurt like I do..." I walked out the door. Anna followed close behind me.

    " Well I hate to ask you but can you walk me home? The dark kinda scares me..." She weakly smiled.

     "Kyle will gladly take you home. Goodnight." I walked away from her.... I hope she doesn't have to walk home like me.

        ANNA'S P.O.V

I wish I could tell Ainion who I really am. I mean he would never believe me... I hate to see him in such pain. I wish he could actually see me. I wish he would hold me one more time, kiss me one last time and then I would be content and let this poor girls body go. I just need him!

"Hey Anna! You need a ride home?" Kyle interrupted my thoughts.

"Yes please. Are you sure you don't mind?" I knew he wouldn't mind but I still asked. I know Kyle and he is a sweet heart but I know that he flirts with girls like crazy and is good at getting what he wants. I don't want him to get in the way of me loving my man again.

"ANNA!!!" Kyle yelled, "are you coming or what?" He was standing beside the passenger door of his truck waiting to open the door for me.

"Oh yeah sorry" I walked to his truck and hopped in. He got it raised pretty high. I assume because it entertains him to see girls try to climb in.