it's been four years
and haven't heard a word.
maybe he's just busy,
probably shooting birds.
he's here, he sees me.
i finally have a sign!
he ignores the elephant,
everything is just fine.
subtly brings up the past,
to him it's all because of me.
yes, i abused myself,
then needed camomile tea
i drove myself crazy
following unknowable rules.
wondering what i did wrong,
all the while carrying his tools.
maybe i'm just crazy.
just need something from a flask.
he doesn't know.
he doesn't ask.
