i found this song about a month ago. it reminds me so much of michael. some days i just lay in bed all day with this on repeat. oh, what am i saying that's everyday....
i miss him. but he doesn't miss me. and i don't know how to be something he misses.
and i feel you forget me like i used to feel you breathe....
my life is the same everyday. wake up. coffee. back to bed until nine. then off to the job i hate.
as i drive i have last kiss playing softly in the background. i work at ihop. i walk over to my first table and say the norm. but then i look at who is sitting in the booth. michael. he was with a different boy. i start to cry my eyes out. "luke please don't do this." "and i feel you forget me like i used to feel you breathe. you can plan for a change in weather and time but I never planned on you changing your mind..." the manger sees me crying and walks over. "luke are you okay?" i shake my head 'no'.
"may i ask what happened..?" "im lukes ex...." "oh, dear..." i collapse on to the floor. "luke how about you take the day off." "im sorry, but i quit, harper." "luke please you're my best employee." "im sorry." i walk out, get into my car and put on last kiss turning it up all the way.
when I get home i put on one of the shirts michael left. after i put on last kiss and turn off my light. i sigh and crawl into my bed. before i can stop myself im crying. i ended up crying myself to sleep. when i wake up i get the box with our pictures in it. i took a lot of polaroids of us.
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i take this one out and just stair at it then i put it back. i still can't belive i saw him today. he looked like he was okay.
