*TRIGGER WARNING*
mom: honey why don't you come over?
luke: sure
i get up and put on my black skinny jeans with the knee out. then i pick a shirt. michaels.
of course when i get in the car last kiss is on. it always is.
i arrive at my parents house quickly. i try the door and it's unlock so i walk in my mother greating me. she wraps her arms around me with a sigh." i missed you, luke." "i missed you too..."
"your dad is in the garage." i nod. he hears me come in and he look up from behind the hood of his old truck. "hey, luke." i smile and give him a hug. "howve you been?" "good."
what a fucking lie.
"tell your mother ill be in in a sec." i nod. when i turn around and start to go back i stop. a blade. haven't seen one in ages. michael helped me stop. i pick it up and walk out.
i tell my mother what he said and a second later he comes in. we sit down at the table together. "luke we need to talk. were worried about you. whyd you quit your job? is everything okay?"
" im okay. i really didn't like working there." the razor feels heavier in my back pocket. "hey, i have to go.." "are you sure?" i nod.
when did i become such a good liar?
i wait till it's dark and i pull up my sleeves. after a few seconds of having it touching my wrist i rip it across my skin. once i do that I can't stop. both my arms are covered. i walk out side and get into the car. i know where im going. once i arrive a knock on the door, crying.
"luke why are you here?" then he notices my arms. "luke, please. you promised." "i promised? so did you and look what happened!!" i say, sobbing. "michael, who's at the door?" he comes up beside michael. "oh."
i pull at my hair. i feel insane.
"you. promised." i screamed at him. "luke, you can't do this okay? move on. i did. we weren't meant to be. you'll find someone i promise."
"you can plan for a change in weather and time but I never planned on you changing your mind." "luke, please go. it would be better if you did." he closes the door in my face.
i don't know how I made it home but i wake up with tear stained cheeks and dried blood on my arms.
