Every Little Life Matters

Sandra's Diary

Sunday

Dear Diary,

I was very happy on Friday. I delivered a baby boy! Oh he was the cutest thing anyone could have ever seen. His eyes were so deep brown and his body was perfect. I wish if I had a cleaner environment to give birth but my place is so cramped and manure is everywhere. The people who try to take our milk aren't very nice. They don't bother to clean up the tiniest bit. I snuggled with my baby as much as I could. I named him Trev. Our mother-child bond was unbreakable, even if I'm hurting all the time. The manure cakes on to our legs and manifests into ulcers and infections, so my legs are always aching. I don't dare lay down because it will get my udders filthy and Trev's milk will be contaminated.

Yesterday Trev tried walking around. I prevented him to, I don't want him to get manure on his new hooves. He was disappointed, but I tried to kick out as much waste out of our stall. He got to jump, his happiness brought me so much joy. On Tuesday, he will start nursing. My udders are so swollen. I don't think we usually produce this amount of milk. Carrie next door said it was from drugs we were given.

Monday

Today is definitely the worst day of my life! Those human took my baby away! I never really liked them all that much but this is too far. Maybe hey don't think that we care about or babies or love them but we do. I attempt to rescue my baby but those evil people hit me with stick and other weird things that I'm sure are there just to cause pain. Trev tried to resist but the people kicked him. I couldn't bear to watch as he was in so much pain and that I couldn't do anything about it. He slipped in the manure and my hard work of keeping him clean from disease was all wasted. Even now I can hear him somewhere in pain, crying for me. If it wasn't from my pain and this confinement of despair, I would do anything to rescue him.

Ilene, who has been here for years told me that this would happen. Her daughter, Charris was here and she told me how Charris' 3 boys were taken away. Harris eventually died because her body was so worn out and she succumbed to disease from this wretched place.