Becoming Nate

This is It. I can't believe this. just WOW.

January 3rd.2017

I'm ready. I am really ready to do this. and I just can't believe it. 

I know I have been saying I am transitioning naturally and going to work out and do this and do that----but tomorrow--------tomorrow is the day all of this REALLY begins.....let me explain further....

Tomorrow-January 4th,2017 is the day I will OFFICIALLY begin transitioning---Naturally From Female to Male. 

This means. 

No Fats[chips,cookies,etc.]

No High Amounts of Sugar---This means replacing all sweet tea and soda and gatorade with WATER. 

This means eating almonds. pecans. kale,brocolli,cauliflower,eggs.eggs.eggs. brussell sprouts. getting supplements and vitamin D. 

This means Working out. like REALLY working out----Pushups, pullups. exercises that decrease my hips. 

This means waking up at 3am. working by 4:30am. 

and ultimately saving money. 

this means NO SPENDING. this means donating at least twice a week for money.

I am a male. And I will be recognized as one.

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Starting tomorrow my journal will begin with Day _ 

It will have everything recorded.I will record every day but saturdays and sundays---so if you are reading this----expect my updates to be daily. 

anyways. 1 hr left of work. I'm so excited about tomorrow. anyways wrappin this up. 

Also. I'm going to be making a book called EMMETT UNTOLD about a gay FTM who leaves home due to his abusive mother, enter into a mix a baby sister that he must take care of so that his abusive alcoholic mother doesn't come after him next. Emmett always knew he  was a boy, a from a very young age he had no problem letting everyone know it. His mother however had different ideas. She never wanted a little boy--and she couldn't stand looking at the 'abomination' she had raised. She should have just threw him to the curb. She kept him all the years because she thought she could beat some sense into him. Beat into her the little girl she had birthed when she was just 18. Then to top it off she has a little girl----a babygirl that doesn't identify as a boy and she sides with her so called brother, the word makes her sick, knowing that it wasn't originally meant to be that way. Meanwhile, Emmett is trying to get his mother to understand----he never chose this, he never identified as a male to mearly spite her, he tried so many times to convince himself he was wrong about his gender--for her sake,but no matter how many times he tried, he just couldn't convince himself that he was female. For awhile it was just him and his mom, and even though she beat him for his identity, he often felt bad and tried to take care of her. His sister Renee came along and that was when things really went down hill. His sister knew he was her brother since she could speak. As she got older, his mother started beating on Renee. That was was he lost it. He had called DCSF and jumped through all the hoops, then when he was informed that everything was set, he had told his little sister that they were going on an adventure and that she would be going with him. It wasn't too long before Renee started to display certain signs----when she lived with Emmett, it seemed that since leaving there mother's Renee was more active,more talkative. Emmett could see that from the start Renee had been in survival mode--she had seen all that her brother went through and tried her best to just do as she was told while supporting him all the same. 

When she came to live with Emmett, She would constantly go over to the boys sections. She was suddenly always playing with boy toys. She no longer liked being called Renee, she just left it at ren for now, She had asked Emmett if he would start calling him he, not she. 

It was starting to be clear to Emmett-that he had a ftm brother--he thought nothing of it at first, he just thought that being around him so much, that he had been a tom boy. Now he was starting to see that his little sister was really his little brother, now on his own and with his little brother he must go to school as well as deal with all the things that come with taking care of a little brother,born a female at birth, while at the same time dealing with his issues as a parent being female at birth as well. How will Emmett deal with this? Is Ren just going through a phase? What happened to his mother? Is Emmett still going through his transition despite having to care for Ren? Read further to find out. 

This will be updated tomorrow. 

anyways its 5:21pm and it is time for me to go home. 

Peace out!