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A collection of all my poems. Well really my thoughts. The darkest moments, the past, the present , the future. This is my life in words.

Long Day

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by beingweirdisliving

by beingweirdisliving

I'm trying really hard
at least that is what I tell myself

I just want to feel okay
Yet I'm just sinking deeper

Almost as if rock bottom is comfortable
But what even is rock bottom?

I feel like it changes every week
But maybe you never know until it's over

Sometimes I'm completely okay
But then I get taken back to that place

A deep dark pit full of all my demons

I really hope that this thing, this darkness, this feeling
Isn't something I can control

Most would expect that I would want the opposite

But if I am
If I'm the one who is throwing myself into this black tunnel

Then there is no way in hell I know how to stop myself from doing so

I'll hold on
There's so much I haven't done

I'm just worried I'll stop wanting to do them

Motivation is ceasing

Thoughts are increasing

And I have no idea how to help myself