It had been two months since, Helen had destroyed her Sanctuary and relocated to the New Underground Sanctuary. It had also been two months since she had initiated a kiss between herself and Nikola Tesla. She hadn't been avoiding Nikola, but she had been avoiding speaking about the topic, everytime it was bought up, she would immediatley shut it down or she would just ignore him.
Nikola of course much to everyone's surprise hadn't been pushing it, he in fact was just his usual flirting self around her, which was nothing new. Nikola however had chosen to now call her up on it, he had always been open about his feelings, about the fact he loved her. He had to know if she felt the same way, or if she just kissed him, because she thought she was not going to survive, the attack from Caleb.
Nikola had gone down to the wine cellar and got a nice bottle of wine, he then went and grabbed some glasses and he made his way to Helen's office. He knocked the door and then walked inside and he said
"Drink With Me Helen"
Nikola asked softly as he poured two glasses and he handed her one and she then responded softly
"Why Do I Get The Feeling I Am About To Get A Grilling From You"
Nikola let a soft chuckle escape his lips as Helen took the glass from him, and he then replied warmly
"I Think That It Is About Time We Spoke Don't You, You Can't Avoid It Forever Helen"
Helen chuckled uncomfortably and nervously, but her eyes said a thousand things, however and she then responded
"Oh I Can Try And Avoid It"
Helen watched as Nikola came and stood in front of Helen and he gently, brushed her cheek with his hand and he then said simply
"Just Answer Me One Simple Question Helen, Why Did You Kiss Me, Was It Because You Feel The Same Way I Do, Or Was It Just Spur Of The Moment"
Helen took a deep breath as,she listened to him, she could have lied and said she didn't feel anything. That however was far from the truth, she did feel the same way, she did love him and she said
"I Could Lie And Tell You What I Would Prefer To Tell You, That I Don't Feel The Same, That I Don't Love You, But I Do Nikola, I Just Can't Go Through What I Did With John, Giving My Heart To Someone Else, Because I'm Scared Of Being Hurt"
Nikola now ran a hand through her hair, and he then placed a tender kiss to her forehead before saying
"I Could Never Hurt You Helen, I'm Not John"
Helen looked to him, she knew that he was right, he wasn't John, but that wasn't risk that she wanted to take. She was naturally frightened, her hand trembled slightly and her breath was deeper. She knew he loved her, she loved him, but it was a fear that she had felt for a long time. Nikola noticed her trembling and he took her hand in his and he said
"Helen You Have To Move On Eventually, You Can't Live This Way Forever. You Can't Keep On Torturing Yourself, For Something That Was Out Of Your Control. You Can't Save Everyone"
Helen looked to Nikola, there was anguish in her eyes, two lifetimes worth of pain and loss, and she then said
"I Should Have Tried Harder, Maybe Sought Other Ways, I Didn't Have To Give Up On Him, Like Everyone Else Did"
Nikola watched as Helen spoke, it was obvious how much she was hurting over this, but there was nothing really she could have done. They all did as much as they could, given the circumstances to help him. But like Helen herself had once said, you can only help those who want to be helped.
"Helen We All Did Everything We Could For Him, You Couldn't Have Done Anything Differently And John Would Agree"
Helen watched as Nikola spoke, he wasn't wrong there had been a time, where John had been enraged with Helen. But that had long since past, he would always love her, they shared a daughter in Ashley. But Nikola and Helen, too shared a daughter in the form of 22 year old Natalya Helene Tesla, she was born a few years after Ashley and she was raise by Nikola and James in the London Sanctuary. Helen chose to keep her a secret, so the Cabal couldn't do what they had done to Ashley, to Talya. So Helen made the difficult choice to not be in Talya's life for 17 years, she let her think she didn't love her, didn't want her. For her own safety, Talya no lives with Helen and Nikola and their relationship, is much better now she understood why Helen Did what she did.
"So Why Do I Feel So Guilty Nikola, Like I Should Have Been Able To Help Him, I Should Have Kept Looking"
Helen knew that, it wasn't her fault, but with how John went, all the lives that he had taken, in the process, she did feel responsible in some breaths, maybe she could have saved them. Looking to Nikola, she was very determined to change this topic of conversation, she would pick it up again, but not yet she actually strangely to get her mind off it, wanted to bring up the kiss.. It would have been a very glad method distraction, for Helen.
"Okay, Now I Have Gotten Us Off Topic, We Were Speaking About Something Else Weren't We. If You Are Going To Speak About It, Then Now Would Be A Great Time, Because I Could Get Called Away At Anytime, Being The Head Of The Sanctuary You Know"
Nikola chuckled, softly, he was aware she was right, he was more than happy to continue the line of conversation, after all it was the reason he had come to see her in the first place. He then chuckled gently, as he placed a hand on her hip and he then eventually said
"Okay, So Now You Want, To Speak About It, That's An Interesting Turn Of Events Helen. I Will Admit, I Am Glad That To Hear That You Feel The Same Way, Do You Think. That You Could See, It Your Way To Maybe Give A Scoundral Like Me A Chance"
Helen smiled softly as she listened, it made her chuckle softly, she couldn't help it. Nikola had a way with words, especially where Helen had been concerned. It in a strange way had always made her smile, despite everything he had been a constant in her life, out of all the men, well aside from James before he died at least. Although he was now back at Helen's side, but they were as ever just as close friends.
"While I Agree You Are A Scoundral, Nikola, You Do Have A Few Redeemable, Qualities, Do You Think That We Could Be A Couple,That It Would Work Between Us"
Helen offered a warm smile, as she looked to him, It was sweet the way he looked at her, and He nodded as he looked to her, he had always imagined them being together. He wanted nothing more than to be able to hold her, in his arms and cuddled her, been able to keep her safe, he wanted nothing more than to share the nights with her.
