Can't Help It

2.

Awsten

Today is Wednesday.
The time is 0353.
I haven't slept.
I've been thinking.
I've been crying.
I've been bleeding.

I can't help it.

I tried calling Quinn.
Asleep.
I should have guessed.
I guess it doesn't matter.
Quinn probably couldn't of helped.

No one can.

I don't have many bandages left.
I need to buy more.
I could go just now.
I decide to go.

I get up and go over to the closet.
I grab a pair of dark blue sweatpants and a black sweatshirt.
I grab my wallet and keys and head downstairs.
I hear a knock at the front door.
Who could be here at this time?
I open the door.

"Hey."

Quinn?
What's Quinn doing here?

"Hey, what's up?"

"I just woke up and I noticed you called. I came to see what was wrong."

"Oh, uh i'm fine now, I guess."

"That's good. Where you going?"

I look down at my clothes.
Oh yeah.
I was going to get bandages.

But I can't tell Quinn that.

"I was uh... Going on a walk to uh... C- Clear my head."

"Can I join?"

Shit.

"Uh yeah, sure."

"Great! Let's go!"

Now I can't go get them.
Although I guess it'll be nice to be with someone.
I put on a pair of black trainers.
I lock the door behind me.
We begin to walk.

"So where to, Awsten?"

"Huh? Oh uh, this way."

I turn right.
We walk in silence for a little bit.

"So, Awsten."

"Yeah?"

"Tell me more about you."

"What's there to tell?"

"Well, you haven't really told me much this passed week."

"That's because there's not much to tell."

"Aw, come on. There must be something."

"There really isn't that much to tell."

"There must be, like what's your favorite TV show?"

"Don't really watch TV."

"What do you watch instead?"

"Netflix."

"What do you watch on Netflix then?"

"Anime mostly."

"Oooh, me too. What's your favorite one?"

"Uhhh Blue Exorcist, what's yours?"

"Fairy Tail. When's your birthday?"

"May 17th, yours?"

"June 17th. Hmm... Have you got any questions?"

"Uhhh, well... I uh... You seem to actually have interest in me and I... I'd like to know, why is that?"

"You seem like the mysterious type and I like that."

Mysterious.
Never been described like that before.
I'm usually described as 'basic' or 'dull' or 'boring', but never mysterious.
Am I that vague about myself?