For you Mary

2. Showing up!

It's true what they say! It doesn't matter if it's a book, a movie, a song or just a story told by your grandmother. Everywhere where is mentioned that waiting for a girl woman is something strange but beautiful!

For some, it's boring and monotonous because "That bottle of Love with its Juice" is empty now, not because they drank it together but because their lips don't match with the bottle and all it's magic is waisted.

For some, it's time waisted. Because they know after this time they won't meet again cause they will only surrend themselves in the arms of the pleasure of the moment.

For some, it's a crucial moment. With an unexplainable emotional situation and a millions of thoughts coming through their minds at that moment, making 5 minutes looking like eternity, they pray for only an answer,for an "I DO". Unbelievable, how powerful and important a single phrase becomes!

We all want to be one of them. We all want to experience that "fear" inside us before we get that "I Do" and an unexplainable pleasure and happiness after we get that "I Do"
We all want to be one of them who experiences that pleasure of the moment also.
But also we all want to be free after realizing that "bottle is empty" and escape from the pain that emptiness causes.

The situation I'm right now is different. Gives me a mix of all of I said before! Later I'll realize that I'll name it the "Magical moment".

I take a look at the phone. 10:33! Wow, only 3 minutes here and feels like I was attending 6 straight hours, math lessons; uncomfortable , pretending like I understand something but I don't and hungry as f*ck!
And to make things worse, near the subway is someone selling open cigarettes and shouting ! He must sell them tonight I think or things will turn for bad at home. I don't smoke but wish my "good luck" help you sir.

I go close to some big vases with flowers, placed in the corner, 30 meters away from the subway's gate. They are not very fresh, but still smell good and give a very beautiful look to the place around there.
And that reminds me again, that is not only outside or physical attraction who makes creatures beautiful. It's something hidden inside that creature who does that!
And that's why they became my favorite flowers in a matter of seconds.

Minutes pass and I can feel my heart beating faster. I have been in first dates before. I've been nervous, sometimes confident, sometimes scared. But this time was different. Looks like a part of mine feels that something important will happen.

It's like the magnet and the metal. The metal senses the magnet before they connect and 'feel' each other before they become one! And like that insecure, metal leaves itself free and has nothing to do but just enjoy the "trip " towards magnet's opened arms!
Looks like not only humans love! Animals and objects do that. Enough we understand the language of their love.

Wait a second! Am I taking about Love? What does it mean? Am I in love with some complete stranger, who by the way I don't know even how she looks like? Can we fall in love, in two days, just by texting?

"Oh my God! Can you hear yourself?"- the angry voice of Devil shows up

"You have only 5 minutes talking bullsh*t and makes me feel like I want to vomit and go out of you in a matter of seconds "- an angrier voice of him

I say nothing. Feel ashamed of what I was thinking and be silent. Even my inside thinks I'm pathetic.

"Talking about love and understanding it, it's not simple. But I can assure you that whatever your heart feels, never underestimate it. Sometimes heart has reasons that brain can't understand"- the Angels voice calmed me down and reminded me once again why we have a good part inside us.

Well now I'm more calmed and more confident. I didn't realize that I was walking while thinking and was a little far away from the subway station. But not very far away because I still could hear that voice, shouting to sell his cigarettes.I felt bad for him but at the same time proud of him because even though he had no other job or choice to grant his family a dinner at night or a sweater in cold, he "sacrifices" somehow himself and does his best!
His throat must hurt though!

I hurry up a little and here I am, again feeling those flowers in my fingers . My smile comes back again like wants to tell me that we become happy unconsciously when we see beautiful things.

"Those are my favorite flowers. Did you know that?"-a soft, beautiful voice comes behind my back.

Omg it's her! My heart begins to beat like crazy again. I can hear that every beat has a sound like "Alarm, alarm, alarm. System must shut down". My eyes are opened wide, still with my back and can't turn around.Her face is only 180 degrees from mine.

Suddenly I can't hear anymore the seller's voice. Am I deaf? Or did he sell his cigarettes? Maybe he did! I'm happy for him.
Wait a second! I can't feel anymore the flower's smell. Now my nose has problems too? No, I can sense another smell. It's sweeter and very inviting. Maybe it's her smell. Her perfume. Okay, whatever it is I just want to close my eyes and...and breathe it into me!

Finally I decide to turn around. I must look like weirdo showing her my back. But before I do so, I pick a flower and turn to face her.

As I'm turning around, unconsciously, I smile again, remembering that, yes when there are beautiful things our Angels take control by giving our hearts the warmest feeling and our lips the best shape!

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Here's the second part. Hope you guys like it. Please feel your self free for any suggestions and feedback as well . Thank you!! :)