His Mind

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A/N (Hi guys so this actually isn't my first story but I've always deleted what I ended up writing but I've decided to once again try to write something I like. There will be a lot of foul language and possibly smut? I'm not sure yet.This will start out kinda like a diary Kuroo is writing and will take place so far in Northern California.I know that is so out of place for these guys but this is a High school AU and I'm going to try my best.Also when the text goes into I'm honestly going off of the small amount of confidence I have right now. I hope you will enjoy this story. Guys the Instagram names where chosen randomly but they are real accounts so If you want to you can follow them they have nothing to do with this story but the accounts are real.)


Kuroo:

12:57 a.m.

January 3rd 2017

Why am I still awake... I don't want this. I don't want to be here. Ever sense my parents split I only see my mom every few months. It sucks because she is the only one who supports what I choose to do. My dad never really trusts me and I'm honestly okay with it. It's not like he even cares though all he does is spend time with his beloved girlfriend. Stupid cunt..... I really hate her all she does is bitch about me smoking and how I'm on independent study. And she has no room to talk shit about me when her daughter goes to a continuation school. But then again who would I be if I let her get to me.

My dad has been dating this scorpion women named Charlene for about a year now. All she does is smoke cancer sticks, drink, bowl and listen to country music. She isn't a very exciting person. And I know it is bad for me to talk shit about her smoking cigarettes when I smoke weed. But hey at least I plan to go to college and have a good life and I'm succeeding in school. Just because I don't go for the full day doesn't mean I'm a piece of shit stoner. I'm not like that.

My school has a weird independent study program where you can choose to go to class for 2 or 4 periods and have the rest be independent online classes. Due to me hating people and getting bored out of my mind in those boring lonely classes I went for having 2 actually classes and 4 independent study classes. It's easier and that way I only have to go to class in the afternoon. It's actually pretty nice. I know people say shit and talk abut me because of the choice I made but oh well. At least the few friends I have still come hang out. Bokuto Kotaro is my best friend along with his boyfriend-is, Akaashi Keiji. We hang out every Wednesday sense Charlene has to have her stupid bowling night. I don't even know why I'm writing this all down but right now I just feel so annoyed and pissed off because I got into a fight I guess with her and she was telling me that my existence didn't matter and my dad didn't say anything. He didn't say a word he just kept drinking his beer and watching a stupid football game. I wish I would've stayed with my mom while I had the chance, she lives in southern California I got to visit her during the holiday break. Sense it's the new year that means later today I get to meet the new students.. well I don't get to meet them I get to learn about them from Bokuto who always goes and introduces himself.

Bokuto.. while thinking of him I slam shut my note book and pull my bong off from the left side of my desk. My window is open slightly letting the freezing air drift in from the dark street by the shitty apartment I am forced to live in. I stare at the ridiculous girly owl sticker he placed on it yesterday... It was just me and him and we were talking about how different life would be if we had never met. He wanted a change of subject so when he went to take a hit he lovingly placed this sicker on it... little shit. (A/N That's the sticker below)

I laughed lightly thinking about it though

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I laughed lightly thinking about it though. Whenever we smoke together it's always great. He makes me so happy. I couldn't think of someone as a better friend. Well Bokuto tells me Akaashi has a friend named Hinata who is also a super great person I want to meet him because apparently he is just like me and Bokuto, he smokes to rid the anxiety and anger from our hearts. I heard from Bokuto he and his boyfriend will be transferred to our school so I'll be able to meet him hopefully. Same goes for his boyfriend I get super happy when I hear about gay couples because I really haven't been attracted to anyone sense my last relationship a year ago. He was nice... but he dumped me twice... we went out twice... and he used me both times for weed and sex ever sense then I haven't wanted to be in a relationship with anyone. I know true love exists but all at the same time I don't think it's for me. Thinking to much is starting to hurt my head.

Third Person

Deeps breaths all that could be heard around the dimly lit room. A dorky Howl's Moving Castle blanket pinned up above Kuroos bed and a strangely huge desk set around the small bed. The room was small but it was enough for him and his friends to all goof off and mess around. Kuroo was special little did he know. He had said many things to keep others alive but never thought much of his words, he never thought of himself as important but in all reality he was the realist person you could ever meet. His constant bed head and height and deep voice made it hard for him to make friends. He was always seen as scary. He was always just that tall creepy kid who barely showed up for school.

A lighter flicked causing the smallest amount of light as Kuroo did it again trying to get his dying lighter to work finally got it to work and held the bong close to his lips and he inhaled the smoke he could practically feel is going to his head and spreading around his body causing a small grin to appear on his face. He lazily walked over to his laptop playing quiet music to calm down and just feel the way he was affected by cannabis. Another hit was taken as he felt himself calm even more. The calming sensation is what was great for him. He always felt tense because large crowds really weren't his thing. He swore he could hear people talking bad about him, he swore he could hear peoples whispers and that they were about him. These days always ended in panic attacks and that is why he went on independent study. It made his anxiety lessen.He felt at peace thinking of nothing in particular as he scrolled through Instagram just double tapping every picture that popped up until he came across on from Bokutos account. It was different then anything else he had ever posted.

Bokuto usually posted photos of the beach Kuroo lived a short 30 minute walk away from or pictures of himself, Kuroo and Akaashi. But this picture contained such a beautiful face a new face. Someone couldn't be alive and be this beautiful. Kuroo thought as he inspected the picture of Bokuto, Hinata, and this beautiful stranger with brown roots showing and blonde hair everywere else on his head. It was nicely combed with a middle part and he was wearing an adorable pair of black glasses. Behind the glasses were a beautiful pair of yellowish brown eyes like a cat. It was so adorable. Kuroo couldn't help but smile as he stared at the photo. Kuroo finally scrolled down a little further to look at the caption and it said "Had a blast meeting up with these two and showing them around the school" Wait........ WHAT Kuroo had to message Bokuto and see if he was still awake he needed answers right now.

Kuroo hit the arrow under the photo to dm Bokuto about the mystery beauty coming the there school. As far as he knew the only two new students were supposed to be Hinata and his boyfriend. But if this cutie was actually coming to his school he needed to know if he needed to try somewhat try with his appearance as he found Bokutos Instagram name.

@owl.boi

DUDE WHO IS THIS CUTIE IN THE PHOTO I NEED ANSWERS RN YOU DICK BAG

@lost.stoner

Okay... 1 calm down I just woke up bc my ringer was all they way up you ass.... plus it's literally 1:30 a.m. just wait until tomorrow and then you'll see him. He's in our bio class. So is Hinata. Ohh maybe we could all hang out tomorrow?

@lost.stoner

WHO IS HE!!!????


Ughhh his name is Kenma... He's quiet and didn't say much... but he is kinda an honor student so idk why he was hanging out with Hinata for all the dumb shit we do together. His ig is

@kinkycatto message him I want to go back to sleep you ass muncher. Goodnight!


@owl.boi

Thank fam I guess I'll see you at lunch tomorrow. I'll check out his ig in the morning I didn't realize it was this late already. Sorry for messaging you so late. XD






A/N Oh gosh there is the first chapter. I hope you enjoyed it and will stick around for chapter 2 I will try to update either every Thursday or Friday.

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