The Four Magic Princesses

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Hey guys... I kinda need to talk real quick... This is a serious authors note... I have a feeling most of you will ignore this though...

So, I'm not really doing that well. For one thing, updates aren't going to be coming out for a while because I have writers block. I really want get to the end of the book, but I don't want to make it rushed. When I make my stories, I try to avoid rushing it. The thing is, I have the end planned out already and I want to write it already. I don't want to rush the event in between because I want this story to be long. I plan to make this book at least 30 chapters long. I don't know what to put in between, so I'm kinda stuck there. I want to rush to the ending, but to make this book last, I can't rush.

Second, somethings have been happening in my private life that have either made me shocked, sad, happy, confused, and all these other emotions. My friend and I just figured out that someone might have a crush on me. Coincidentally, I have a crush on him too. Instagram and having friends actually help in wanting to know information. I know this is supposed to be a good thing, but I don't know what to feel. I still feel shook from when she told me. She told me the whole story starting from when she started figuring it out and me adding a few things that happened when she wasn't there to witness it.

So, at first, we were playing random card games during our recesses and our free periods. During the recess, we had to supervise younger grades because it was to cold to play outside (Normal Canada winter weather). During those times, we would often go through the other classrooms to see what they were doing. My crush often went to my room and I often went to his. Sometimes we would fight, but it was just for fun.

After, we would get a free period to play around since we skipped our recess to supervise young untamed children. The one day I won't forget is when we were playing cards and watching a movie. The last two days before winter break were the days when we were aloud to do anything. Like I said, like three times already, we were playing cards and our classmate/friend made firework noised and traced hearts around us. He also made a heart with both his hands and put us together in it. At this point, I was trying so hard not to blush or get flustered. I was already getting suspicious of his behavior, but I let it slide. Let's go to the next day.

Next day after school and I'm at home, my friend texted me on instagram. She said the friend that was doing the firework and heart things, told her on the bus that my crush liked me. My friend was the only friend who knew about my crush on ,well , my crush. 

Recently, she texted me and sent me photos on instagram. There was a post that said "Comment a number and I will answer honestly." Then there were different thing he could tell people about HONESTLY. Most people commented 1, which was for crush. He responded to them only using initials. The initials were S.J, my initials. I'm not telling you my name though. Try guessing, I dare you.

So yeah, that happened. I'm not believing he likes me or anything because I'm that sad person who knows they won't get love in their life because I want someone who is on the same level as our kpop Oppas. Yeah no, I'm not that kind of person. I just don't want to believe it. Yeah, he's nice, cute, kind, friendly, fun, and many different things. He's similar to me and he liked kpop for some amount of time before slipping out of the diamond life. My ideal type is someone who it similar to me and can act cute or rude at different time depending on the situation. He's also has to be manly at sometimes and also savage when it comes to burning people. That is the thing I look for the most in a person. If they can burn someone them for hours and not get tired of it. It's actually quite interesting. Man, I'm a weird person.

So yeah, that's what has been happening. Also, I have a secret I barely tell anyone, but I trust my readers more than I trust myself and my friends. Even though I don't know most of you, I trust you to let people figure out why this book is getting more depressing as it might proceed instead of telling them. I know, stupid, right?

Okay, so part of the reason is because I'm going through... Depression... I also have suicidal thoughts... I don't go anywhere to help me with it either. I also have anger issues. That doesn't help. I remember I got mad at one of my friends for hating kpop. I had a reason! It's kpop, that should sum it all up. I also get very protective over the smallest things. 

I had a talk with my teacher about what was happening. We talked about why I was in depression and I had anger issues. Turns out, my teacher has depression too. She also has another thing, but I'm not telling you what it is. Don't even try to guess.

There are other things that are happening, but I don't want to waste your time reading a stupid authors note that no one cares about. I'll stop here, but I'm going to tell you that I won't be updating for a few weeks so that I can get my feeling together. I have to go to school on Monday so I'm preparing to be stressed. I honestly wonder how many people care about my problems in life. Not many I bet you.

I'll see you when I update again. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year by the way. I know I am VERY late, but I don't really like to make a big deal out of it because you literally see that everyone posts about it saying "HAPPY NEW YEAR" or something like that. I also don't make to much of a deal about comeback because you have all those other fangirls out there in the world who do it for you. Maybe your friends too it they're fans of kpop.

I'll see you next update. BYE!!