Can't Have You (A yoully fanfiction) #Wattys2017

Eff standards

Authors Notes: First off can we talk about Yousefs hair?😍😍😍 lol just wanted to say how happy I am he is feeling better 💕 anyways back to the good stuff lol enjoy 😘

Lilly's POV

I moaned in pleasure I felt relieved not just because of the sex because I can do that with anyone but because it was him. I held on to him and he then inserted himself inside I arched my back whilst biting my bottom lip. We made love and it was the most perfect feeling in the world. We both layed for about hour enjoying each others company in silence. I traced my hands around his chest whilst my head layed on his chest litsening to his heartbeat. "Yousef..." "Yes love?" His voice gave me chills i don't know what it is about Yousef but I had such a weak spot for him. "I wanna talk..about us" He sighed. "Please don't tell me you're not sure about this Lilly. I-" I cut him off immediately in a soft voice. "No no my love I just want you to litsen." I could see relieve in his face. I sat up next to him covering my body with the blanket and faced him. I took a deep breath and exhaled slowly, I know how I felt and I have gone through what I wanna say many times in my head but I was so nervous to face my reality. "I..love you and I am not hesitating because I'm unsure but because I am scared...I'm scared of the past that tore us apart, I'm scared of the future because I don't wanna hurt again... I tried to move on once and it went horribly I don't.." I felt tears fall down my cheeks. " ...I don't wanna hurt again I wanna be with you Yousef." He quickly sat up and hugged me wiping my tears away. "Lilly you know how I feel, you know how I've felt I've been in love with you... only you no one has ever came close to take your place Lilly, I told you before with Gabby I had no choice.... and I apologize for even thinking she could mother a child of mine. I can't help the situation I have no excuse but to just tell you I'm sorry and I promise you Lilly nothing....nothing at all made me love you less, the whole time I felt misery." I wanted to hold in my tears but I couldn't, I shed a tear and immediately buried my face in my hands. "No my love.." He grabbed me by the waist placing me on his lap and began to softly wipe my tears. "Lilly the last thing I want to do is upset you, I've done enough of that." I held my head up and wiped my tears gaining my composure. "I'm not crying because I am sad I am honestly just emotional I just love you. Yousef I want to be official." His face brightened by my words he let out a smile and held me closer. I cleared my throat and faced him still on his lap. "Yousef... this is probably the most effing awkward way I want ask you this but I want to be the one to ask you because Eff standards." He let out a chuckle. " Yousef... will.... you be my boyfriend? Like for real this time?" He laughed and kissed me. "Lilly Pilly Dilly....of course." I smiled I pressed my lips against his, leading to a passionate kiss I began to feel my face get wet I pulled the kiss off and noticed Yousefs had a tear running down his cheek. "Babe don't cry.." I smiled and wiped his tear away. " He laughed it off I can tell he was a bit embarrassed. "I'm just really happy I've been in such a fucked up mood lately, well for the past couple of months to be truthful. But I'm back I feel so good, so motivated and ready for the world." I smiled I haven't heard this Yousef in a really long time and I felt so proud. "I'm so happy to hear that babe, you have no idea.. I want you to realize how amazing and wonderful you are inside and out... well you're not looking so bad." I laughed. He laughed as well softly pushing my shoulder with his fingers. "You know I'm sexy, don't play with me girl." Smiling he layed back down and pulled me towards him. We layed the rest of the night laughing most of the time. I did not vlog because we decided to take some time before we tell our fans. Which I was ok with we both were not prepared for the drama that came along with telling the world about us. At the moment I was content with my life I've pre recorded one video so I wasn't too stressed about having to record at the moment. But I did have to travel soon so I had a couple things to get done."Lill ?" "Yeah?" "I'm going to visit my family in New Jersey soon and I was wondering would you come ? I mean I don't want to push you into doing anything but I'm sure my mom would be excited to see you again. Let alone find out that we're finally together as she would've like." I can sense the smile in his face as he spoke those final words. "Babe I would love to but, I have to travel to New York for a couple of days for business I mean it's right there near by but I just have a lot to do I have to pre record about three more videos and plus vlogs that's gonna be kind of leading people on to conclusions you know?" He sighed. "It's fine." I could hear the disappointment in his voice but I just wasn't ready to meet Mrs.Erakat as her sons girlfriend yet, I was terrified and then that would mean we would have to explain things to my parents because they would be furious to find out I have a boyfriend through social media before then even meet him....wait that's it. I sat up facing Yousef. "Ok babe how about this? How about we host something like a dinner my place or yours whichever, and we fly our parents here. Just so we can tell them together, my parents I'm sure would be glad to meet your parents and they would like to find out about us before it gets out. I know your mom would feel better about that and so would mine." "That actually sounds like a really good idea love, I mean it's kind of crazy in timing but my mom would respect it more if she met your parents as well that can actually work, wow what a smart baby I have." He laughed because he knew I hated being called baby. I kissed him playfully. "Boy let's talk about those skills you pulled on me earlier.... you had me shaking." I laughed noticing his proud look. "Well you know girl I been waiting to show you that good good." He laughed and kissed my forehead. "I am starving let's order room service." I bit my lips as I looked at him. "I'm hungry too... but I want a snack first." He knew where this heading I could tell by the way he turned around to look at my breasts. "I'll give you a snack if you promise to not hold back and give me one too." I grinned and shook my head and climbed on top of him.

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