Help Me Live

Chapter 1

My name's Mia. Mia Watson. I go to school at Gloucester County High School. Even the name sounds boring. I live a pretty average life. I have friends, and am on the upper end of the social scale. My best friends are Arabella and Justin, I call them Ari and Brooks because of one of our inside jokes. I'm an honors student with a rich family, and to most people, I am living a the life. But that's the problem. I'm not most people.
I want to be happy. I've tried. But every time I stare into the mirror i find another flaw. My eyes are too small, my forehead's too wide, my nose to big, my lips, boobs, and butt too small, and my chunky stomach and thighs protruding from my figure. Ari always says I'm skinny, but she's a liar. She doesn't know the real me.
I cut. And it feels good. The feeling of the deep red blood running over my wrist makes me feel powerful. Because I hold all the cards. Live or die. It's that simple. So simple.
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I wake up to the blaring sound of my alarm.
"No no no no no," I mumble, trying to hit the snooze button.
"Mia, you have to get up," my dad gently reminds me from my doorway.
"Ugh!" I complain.
I roll out of my ginormous bed, and stumble over to the closet. I grab my ripped jeans, a black tank top, and a grey cardigan. I walk into my bathroom and turn on the shower.
As I step into the steamy heaven, I feel my muscles relax. I wash and rinse my hair, then I spot it. My razor. A feeling of longing pulls in my chest. How can one little object hold so much power over me? After barely debating it, I pick up the cool plastic and metal, and give into my deepest desires.
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AN/// hey guys sorry it's so short, I'm trying to get you to know Mia. I hope you enjoyed my first chapter! The next chapter will take place at school, and we meet Ari and Brooks.