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CHAPTER 1

I woke up in that same room. You know when you wake up and you hope you'll be in a better place, per example in my case heaven, or your nice cozy bed but instead I wake up in that same fucking hospital bed. I couldn't take it anymore, I feel like shit, my mouth feels like it's scalded, I have ulcers in my mouth, I'm often nauseous, I vomit all the time, my headaches are a bitch, I'm as bald as Caillou, my nails are brittle my skin is dry as fuck, I have diarrhea and I feel worthless. So worthless.

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My date of birth: February 28th 1997

"Pousse mon amour pousse!"

(Push my love push!)

"Michael can you stop filming and help me get that thing out of my body!"

"Ce n'est pas un 'thing' chéri, c'est notre bébé."

(It is not a 'thing' hunny it's our baby.)

"MICHAEL!"

"D'accord d'accord, Marie film ce moment s.t.p."

(Alright alright, Marie film this moment please)

"MICHAEL!!"

"J'arrive Laura. Respire mon coeur respire Maintenant grande inspiration et pousse pousse pousse pousse pousse! Encore une autre fois et pousse! Je peux voir la tête."

( I'm coming Laura. Breathe my love breathe. Now breathe in and push push push push push! One more time and push! I can see the head.)

Laura was screaming at the top of her lungs. My aunt Marie grabbed the baby and yelled "it's a girl!"

"Merci Marie on le savait déjà." My dad said

(Thank you Marie but we already knew.)

"Tagueule Michael." She said

(Shut up Michael.)

"Give me the baby Marie." My mom said.

My aunt handed the baby to my mom. My mom looked at me and kissed me on the forehead.

"Welcome to this world Efstathia Marie Laura Xenakis LaBelle."

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I get out of bed and I saw my aunt Marie peacefully sleeping in the hospital bed next to me. My aunt is the best person in the world. I loved her so so so much, a little bit more than Hannah. Marie has been there for me since day one. She's a mother figure to me. She has gone through so much just to help me. Everyday she sleeps in this hospital bed, everyday she goes to work. Thank god for the Medicare card or we'd be living from pay check to pay check. My aunt is the one holding my hair when I puke....well when I had hair, the one that consoles and cheers me up when I am sad, the one that protects me from everything. She had 3 kids: a 17 and 19 year old daughter and a 21 year old son. The 19 and 21 year olds despised their mother because of a divorce that happened a few years ago. My uncle kept on saying how my aunt Marie fucked some guy at her workplace, Alice and Paul, the 19 and 21 year old were dumb enough to believe that. But Audrey the 17 year wouldn't take any sides and because of that she was kicked out from my uncle's house. My cousin Audrey is either sleeping at her house or at the hospital. I don't see her during day time because she has got to work but I get to spend time with her during the evening.

I give my aunt a peck on the cheek and go downstairs in my robe to get some breakfast for me and my aunt.

I stand in line to get some food and I hear some girls in the hospital cafeteria laughing at me. I can hear them whispering shit on me. One of them comes to see me and asks trying not giggle. "I'm sorry, are you a girl or a boy?"

I show her my perfect tits. You wanna touch?"

"Eww"

"I know right! I had the same reaction when I saw your face. OMG!"

"What?!"

"You have so many pimples."

"No I don't!"

"Yeah you do hunny, check yourself in the mirror."

The lady that served my breakfast started laughing her ass off. The girl felt her face for any pimples and she quick-walked towards her friend that was also laughing hysterically she grabbed her and they both went to the bathroom.

I wished Hannah was here. She was my rock...

Once I get my food, I go upstairs and bring breakfast to my aunt.

"Waky waky miss Marie."

She quickly wakes up. "Is that beacon I smell?" Sniffing the delicious smell of the good food.

"Beacon and Eggs." I whisper in her ear.

"Did I say I love you yet today?"

"Nope"

"I love you Efstathia"

"I love you too."

My aunt dives in and eats everything in the plate she looked like a hungry ogre. As for me, I only took three slices of beacon and a piece of egg and I was already full. The doctors said that this would probably a side effect from the chemotherapy. I am pretty skinny now, I lost so much weight, I am 5'10 and I only weighed a 107 pounds. On the outside I looked like a mess but on the inside ... Hahaha I still felt like a mess.

To get those stupid thoughts out of my head, I decided to hang out at the TCBCC (Teen's Can Beat Cancer Club). Ridiculous huh? Even though we were about 80 teens in this club, at least one every two months would die but one person was always readmitted. The death of many was the reason why they warned us to not get too attached to anyone, a mistake Hannah and I made but that I'll never regret.

I was hanging out with Jenny. Jenny is also 16 years old like me. She was diagnosed with leukaemia a few years ago. She was in remission for about 2 months but unfortunately the cancer came back a day before Christmas. Jenny and I have been friends for 2 months now. We would watch movies often together, the sad, scary, horror, funny movies everything. I don't think there isn't one movie in this hospital we haven't seen at least 3 times.

"Stacey (my nickname) come closer."

"You're horny again?" I smirked.

"Well that's one thing but come closer."

"What?"

"Erick asked me out."

"What the hell." I was shocked. Erick Wordsworth was diagnosed Osteosarcoma and he was 17 years old. Jenny and him were always on a on and off relationship. They loved each other and then they were sick of each other but the problem is that last time Erick had bitch slap Jenny pretty hard, they had gotten into a serious fight. I never liked Erick, he would look at you with contempt... Fucking asshole . "Stay away from that guy."

"But--"

"Stay away from that he's a douche"

"But I can feel it this time, he loves me for real."

"And what... The last time you were a fucking try out? You're worthless to him, he just wants to fuck and plus you know you can't do that. It's bad for your condition."

"Fine."

"Thank you, I love you."

"Love you too."

"I'm gonna go to bed I'm exhausted."

"Yeah me too. See you later"

"Yep."

On my way to my room, I felt dizzy. Oh no shit I'm gonna puke. I ran to the bathroom and started puking. The nurses heard me and they promptly came into my room trying to calm me down. One was caressing my bald head while the other sprayed some febreze in the bathroom and called my aunt to come in the bathroom immediately. Fuck I was annoyed by this disease!

"I WANT HANNAH" I yelled.

(Author's note: I officially decided to write another book, something more interesting that the first one I hope. I hope you guys liked this chapter;))