Hello this isn't art but I really need to get this out
So I just started school again, and where I live, there's Primary and Secondary schools. I just went from Primary to Secondary, and it's very different from what it used to be.
We have to audition for CCAs, which are basicall after-school activity things. I want to join the Art Club, but I'm terrified.
One of the things that I'm most insecure about is my art. I will be the first one to criticize it, the first one to say it's bad. And I'm going to have to convince someone that my art is actually good when I, myself, don't even think it is.
There are 24 other people auditioning for this, which is a lot more compared to every other CCA with about 9 or 10.
I know I'm going to be shaking on that day and I'll probably feel like throwing up and my voice will shake. Fucking anxiety.
I might even need to go for other auditions, incase I don't make it in. Everyone's just saying, "just go, what's so hard about it?" and I feel like crying because it's fucking hard when I feel like I'm about to pass out and I can't breathe and my mind's just going wow you're so stupid and you're not good enough kill yourself
Help me
-bubs
