Hello there !! It's me,,,the person who procastinated updating her fics for about a year.
There's a reason for that, though -- they sound like excuses, really -- but at about august of last year, my mental health started a downward spiral, and I was struggling with keeping up with exams and grappling with copius amounts of dissociation and depressive episodes. That's the main reason for my absence, I guess.
I was also branching out to other genres of music, and while I still adore the boys and their music, I've also, at the same time, found other amazing music (and non-music) artists to spend unhealthily long amounts of time on. You could say that the Joshler ship's gotten sort of boring -- or really, just uninteresting -- to me now. Sure, most of the authors and readers on here are really supportive and nice and lovely, but the ship's just -- really stagnant(?) now. I've run out of ideas, gone through every possible aspect and role of their metaphorical relationship -- so much that it's become almost a chore to think up new ideas to write at this point.
This doesn't mean that I'll stop listening to their music -- because I won't -- and it doesn't mean that I'm leaving the fandom forever. I still enjoy their music, I still like them as people -- but until new music comes, I'll be taking a break from writing anything Joshler. (forgive me for this, I love you all)
That, however, doesn't mean that I'll stop writing. Currently, I'm joining a creative writing programme at my school -- which is a pretty big deal for me, and I've been writing about things in my own life -- not all just fanfiction and imagines. (though i still do indulge in the occasional one or two)
About writing on this app -- I've decided to move onto another one -- Archive of our own, I feel, gives writers just that little bit more control and visibility -- and also, red is a much lovelier colour than the good ol' orange. (you know it's true)
So -- yeah! I have two fics up on Ao3 at the moment -- both Klance -- but I might move some of my fics on here over. (do some editing, y'know,,) I'll continue posting my writing on here too, if you guys want me to. I want to write more personal stuff -- maybe even create my own characters and own stories.
It's been great meeting all of you guys here, and being exposed to such a wide audience and developing my writing bit by bit. It still blows my mind that people have actually read anything I write and liked it -- I don't think I'll ever stop being shocked at that.
I won't be deleting any of the fics on here, because no matter how much they make me cringe and cry, they're still, well, memories.
I'm @ hhearthappy on Ao3 (and Instagram, if you want to find me.)
That's all for now. I love you all, and I'll see you around.
-bubs <3
