Bookworm

four ➳ a d r i a n

"You can think whatever you want, do whatever you want. I'm just going to go on loving you, even if it's hopeless."

(Adrian Ivashkov; Vampire Academy and Bloodlines by Richelle Mead)

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Clover: I can't do it oh my god oh my god I can't do it

Alexx: clover. woman UP. yes you can. you want this right?

Clover: DO I REALLY? :----(

Alexx: well what the fuck you said you did

Clover: I do. I think? :---( Ughhhhhh

Alexx: you're not just doing this for julian right?

Clover: Of course. I've always wanted to act.

samanthugh: morning! :))

samanthugh: so what'd i miss?

Alexx: chicken with a side of clover

Clover: ALRIGHT ALRIGHT FINE

Clover: I'm doing it.

Clover: Nothing bad can happen right?

Clover: RIGHT?????

Seen by samanthugh at 6:31 AM

Clover: Oh my god that's it I'm not doing it

Alexx: jfc bitch i just got water

Alexx: worst that can happen is you embarrass yourself. but fuck that. best that can happen is you get to spend more time with drama boy

Clover: Ugh right right. Okay. See you guys later :---)

Seen by samanthugh and Alexx at 6:37 AM

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"Next! Alexander Laurens?" Adriana, the vice president of the drama club, calls out. I'm standing in the right wing, waiting for my name to be called out, feeling like an idiot.

This year, the drama club's doing a performance of Grease. We'd been told to prepare a monologue and a song, and I've memorized it and everything, but there are about three people watching in the audience and I'm already terrified. My fists ball up and I start humming something; I don't even know what song it is but it helps somehow. I shut my eyes. That's it. I can't.

I turn back to face the exit to find Nicholas standing there with an amused look on his face and I stop in my tracks. "Hey there, Taylor. You okay?"

"You're auditioning?" I blurt out. He shakes his head and smiles. "Nope. I just wanted to see if you actually went through with this," he says, cocking his head to the side. "You are, aren't you?"

I quickly shake my head. "Nope. Can't do it. I'm outta here." I try to move around him, not quite looking him in the eyes, but he blocks my path and fixes me with a gentle but firm stare. "You've always wanted to act?"