Heart's Desire

chapter 5

“What?? But why dad??!!”

“I'm already late can't drop you today sorry kid" My dad says and leaves the house. Ughh I hate walking.I still have sometime to get to school.

“Mom I’m leaving bye” I shout and leave the house. My school is about twenty minutes away.

When I reach my school I straight walk to my locker I have not seen Tyler or anyone else yet. My first class is English and I make my way towards the class.

I almost forgot that harry is in my class so I first decide to go to the washroom to check my appearance. It’s not like I want to impress him but it’s just that I want to look good not like a nerd anymore. I wonder if he still likes me? Does he have the same feeling for me just like he had before? I try to forget those questions I don’t even know why i am think about him.

When I get in the washroom only two girls are there, not familiar at all. I check my make up even though I don’t wear much make up. Its fine I look fine at least not like a slob. I exit from there and start walking to my class. When I reach there Mr. fields has already entered. No shit I am late!!!

“Miss Williams can you give  me  a reason why you are late to class?” Mr. fields ask me as soon as I enter the classroom. Wow now everyone is starting at me including harry ughh!!! I look  at him but look away immediately.

“umm I was just late” my voice is almost like a whisper I quickly make my way to find a seat. Everywhere else is full so have to sit at the back. I am not the back bencher kinda girl.

Harry is at his usual seat when I look at him he is writing something in his book. Mr. fields is talking about some poem but my attention is diverted towards harry. His simple outfit looks so good on him. White t-shirt and black jeans. His brown shiny curls pushed back from his forehead. I can’t stop staring at his tattoos I did notice them on the first day but now  I can freely stare at them because he can’t see me.

“Miss Williams would you like to repeat what I just said” Mr. fields voice booms in the class and I turn my attention towards him.

“As  you are not attentive in class grace I think your punishment should be to read your homework first”

 “ But sir it’s umm a small poem”

“That’s fine”

 wow again everyone was staring at me.

I never liked this kind of attention at all. I have no worries about reading my poem in front of the class  so I take my book out. I don’t need to read it from my book I remember it on tip of my tongue so my eyes are focused no harry instead.

“Yes you can start grace” Mr. fields informs me. Harry is still not looking at me. I sigh and start to read my poem.

Which I wrote for harry but he isn’t interested at all.

2 am,

And I would lie awake in my bed ,

Thinking about how much  you have changed,

Thinking about why don’t  you smile anymore,

Then I realized – I’m the reason

when I finished with my poem harry turned around and I searched for his green eyes. When our eyes  meet there was a unusual thing. As if he knew that I wrote this for him.

I kept staring at him the whole room turned their  attention to what Mr. fields was saying but only me and harry were staring in each others eyes.

[ Harry’s POV]

I can’t believe what I just heard. Maybe I have mistaken but what grace wrote was so related to me.

she left me that was the reason I feel so alone and broke. My parents are not happy.  Everything, literally every fucking thing has messed up. My life is not the same as it was I want grace back in my life. I don’t think there is any other reason but only her she left me broken. I want to kiss her hard hold her fuck!!!

but I can’t forgive her so easily. 

I tear my eyes away from her’s and focus them in my book. Even though I am not looking at her right now all I can still see is her blue eyes staring at me searching for that lost harry.

I don’t know what to do when I saw her with Tyler it felt so weird. What if she doesn’t want me anymore? What if she likes Tyler? She had a boyfriend in Chicago ? Of course she did she is so beautiful. She is too innocent some guy must have fucked her already!!!

Ughh why am I thinking this no no grace would never sleep with someone .

What makes you think that harry look at yourself  first !!!

A voice in my mind speaks . fuck I need a smoke.

When is this class going to end. I sigh .

“Mr. styles would you like to read your poem?” mr. fields disturbs my thoughts.

“No” I back answer him there is no way in hell I am reading it in front of grace . everyone in the class laughs at my answer except grace.

I wrote my poem by keeping her in my mind but I can’t let her see that I still think about her.

“Harry read your poem now” Mr. fields says he looks irritated now.

I groan and start to read it.

You were no longer beside me,

My heart would scatter into pieces  every time I heard your name,

When I thought I got over that heartbreak,

I heard your name again.

She is looking at me with wide eyes . That’s it now she knows I still like her. I don’t look at her just keep scribbling things in my book I’m not even interested to focus on what Mr. fields is teaching.

The bell rings after which feels like an hour I am the first one to leave the class. When I reach in the hallway it’s not so crowded . I open my locker and and shove my books in it. Suddenly I feel a tap on my shoulder when I turn around.

It’s grace. Shit.

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